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Layout Info How to create a pretty layout. Step one: blatantly steal a random anime image. Step two: edit with Microsoft PhotoDraw. Step three: Pick lyrics from a song (such as, I dunno, the translation of Tsuki no Ie from Outlaw Star???) Step four: Create a layout using old html and Microsoft FrontPage. Step five: Upload.   Contact Info Email: graphitegurl@yahoo.com AIM: Dracon Genocide, NuAgeVntageHippy MSN: silverchibidingo@msn.com Yahoo: chibi_sakuya ICQ: 97190525 Quite the GOOD Friday! lol - Friday, April 18, 2003, 11:00 p.m. Well, bowling was fun. I left about noon to go pick up Stash and Nick. I got to drive. Then Carrie called and she needed a ride, too, so I picked her up. It was fun. I love driving, especially with George. He lets me get away with almost anything. Then we went to Hillcrest and sat around till everyone got there. We got our lanes, and divided it up. The first lane was Britney, Carrie, Jake, and Heather. The second lane was McFarland, Nick, and me. The third lane was Dan, Justin, Stash, and Glenn. We bowled a lot and had a lot of fun. Stash kept bowling for other people and getting gutter balls. THAT was funny. We got the arm stuck a couple of times! LOL! Anyway, we had a lot of fun and then headed out. Next, Stash, Nick, Justin, and I went over to Dan's house. We hung there for a little bit up in Dan's room. We played with electricity balls and stuff, before deciding that there was nothing to do and we should head out. Though Justin kept trying to get Nick and I to make out....nothing happened. >.<; I'm horny as fuck, so I was kind of hoping that he'd go for it. Stupid little freshmen. Anyway, we loaded up into the car to take the froshies home (silly little kids). At one point, I was yellin at Nick for something and held his head close to mine and looked into his eyes. Justin yells out "Just kiss her already!" Dammit, Nick, take the hint! Anyway, then we headed to Jefferson Pointe. We met Tim there, and he had some weed on him, so we headed over to Walmart and stole a lighter and got a pop can out of the pop machine. Then we went behind Best Buy, where Dan, Justin and I smoked while Tim laughed at us, saying that we weren't doing it right. He made a nice bowl for us, though. Anyway, the shit wasn't horribly strong. I took about twice as many hits as I did when I was with Lisa, and didn't get half as fucked up. All it really did was impair my vision and make me not horny anymore. Woo hoo! Dan still has what's rest of the bud, and next I see him he'll bring me half and part of what I paid Tim. Next we went to Rave and got tickets for the 7:45 showing of Malibu's Most Wanted. It was only 6:45, so we headed across and got some ice cream at Coldstones. Justin helped pay for mine. He was trying to get some from me all night, but I kept shooting him down. He's not my type. Even as horny as I was, I wouldn't get up on THAT... Though I did almost jump Tim a couple times in the movie. The movie itself was hilarious. It was funny, cuz these cell phones kept going off in the theater, and Dan yells out "God DAMMIT!" finally. We were cracking up. The movie was worth it and will be on the list for the 2nd Annual Christmas Moviefest! ^_^ Then Tim left us to go get drunk, so Dan, Justin and I walked around while I prowled for some ass. Finding none, Justin called his parents to take us home. Well, Dan's stepdad, Chris showed up shortly after. I didn't want to get stuck alone with Justin with how he had been hitting on me the whole night, so I rode home with Dan and bitched in code to him how I wanted my half of the bud and my money. lol. Now I'm home, online, and just chilling! I need to wash the ugly off my face and go to bed soon, so I best be going!!! Peace yoZ! What the hell is wrong with me?! - Tuesday, April 15, 2003, 06:30 p.m. Yeah, so yesterday I made up my mind that I can't wait forever for Nick because I was getting too bored with the acting like we were boyfriend and girlfriend when we weren't really. I was sick of getting asked everyday "Are you two going out yet?!" So I told him that things just weren't working out and we just weren't moving along enough and we were best off as friends. In a note. I didn't think a lot about it last night other than keeping my cell by me, hoping that he would call me. Needless to say, he didn't. Instead I talked to John for awhile and listened to him tell me how much he liked me and how he has liked me since he met me back over the summer. After he and I got off the phone, I called Dunc-o, whigging out. After all, I don't know what I want to do with John....I have enough other things to worry about right now. This morning, Nick came and sat with us and I tried to explain to him my reasoning, but I just felt like an ass everytime I tried to explain how I "couldn't wait forever." He said he understood, but I still felt like shit all day. I wound up forgetting about it after about 2nd period, though, because I spent most of 3rd ogling Dave Studinski for reasons unknown even to me, though I may or may not explore that thought process tomorrow. Depends on how much I want to gross Shlomo out. ^____^ lol, I'm so horribly mean. Anyway. Then came lunch. At lunch, Nick hadn't left his bookbag at our table, so I wound up assuming a fetal position in my chair, upset that he wasn't sitting there. His chair was left empty because everyone knows THAT IS KOKO'S CHAIR. Anyway, he wound up sitting with us for awhile, but then took off to be with his other friends, and soon I took off to go whine and moan to Jim. By this time, I was beyond my wits hysterically insane about this whole thing and didn't know what the hell to do. I tried to explain to Jim and he said he would talk to him. So, Lisa dragged me off to Block where I failed a quiz (didn't read any of the questions, no less) and then wrote in the notebook about how insane I was going. After break, I felt a little better, but not a lot. However, I was able to fly through my Alg2 test w/o problems. After school, I was talking to Lisa and she said that Jim said that Nick wanted to ask me out, but didn't know how. FUCK. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK. So now I've spent all evening trying to call him because WE NEED TO TALK, but his phone is chronically BUSY!!!!!!!!! *dies* Then John called me, and he asked me if I wanted to go out sometime with him and I was kinda like "Uhhh....I have to think about it." Hell-O, I have OTHER THINGS to work out right now!!!!! I'll worry about it later. *sighs* Anyway, while I was the phone with Gimpy, I talked to Dan on the house phone and that was funny, cuz John didn't know we were on the phone. XDDD! Anyway. Kai-kai, Nicole, and I think Adam are here for dinner, so I've gotta go eat. Huzzah for family? Peace! ~Slugger~ Yesterday...the good, the bad, and the ugly. - Saturday, April 12, 2003, 11:39 a.m. Well, yesterday was bad, but in the end it was a success. So here goes. I suppose I can't credit this to yesterday, cuz it was Thursday night, but I'm going to type out Paul's absolute bitchiness now. He IMs me with a link and I ask what it is. "It's funny, go to it." I keep telling him I want to know what it is before I go, and he blocks me because I won't go. Real mature. Well, yesterday in Trig, he was acting as if nothing happened. Riiiight... Though he was also acting as if he was a math god yesterday all because his mom is a math tutor. It pissed me off because I know what I'm doing too. My mom may not tutor, but I know my math. I'm not taking two math classes at once for no reason at all. Aaron was also being kind of bitchy yesterday. He came up to us in the morning all excited about something. Lisa asked him if he had worn that shirt earlier this week (which he had), and he got pissed and said we were making fun of him and stormed off. I was like "uhhh...okay...." And then he went and found other people to sit and hang out with in the morning. That was kind of upsetting because we were just asking a simple question and he went off on us and ran off. *sighs* People these days. THEN there was GERMAN. O...m....G. Okay, so we got on the topic of pets and someone had said how their cat sleeps on their face. I said how I didn't have a cat and my dog sleeps with my parents. "I thought you killed your dog!" Jasmin. I glared at him and paused before saying we put her to sleep. Then both he and Chris started saying how I killed her and how it was my fault. I got so upset, I just withdrew into a shell and clutched her tags and was just so upset.... Bosko, who usually just needs to duct tape his mouth shut, was at least nice. He made a comment like "I'll hold em down, you punch em." That made me smile cuz then he and Jasmin got into an argument about whether or not Jeff could hold him down. Journalism. Kuhn came back and told Will and Greg to go to the Enviromental Center to take pictures of an Ecology class. I asked Kuhn while he never gave me assignments, I needed the grades. So he said to get a camera and go with them. Then he proceeded to call attendance to tell them where we were going, except when I got back in the room to get film, he had only reported Will and Greg. I asked for film, and he was like, "Oh, you're going too?" ~.~; Then he loaded my camera and I ran to catch up with Will and Greg. Greg turns around and goes, "Not to be mean or anything...but I hope you have your own ride out there. I only have room for two in my car." HE DRIVES A SUNFIRE GT, A 5-SEATER CAR!!!!! So. I almost turned back around right then, but determined, I walked all the way out to the Enviromental Center and took my pictures and walked back with the class. But it was still upsetting. The rest of the day went fairly well. We had a girls-night out and went to go see Anger Management. Well, Lisa picked me and Jake up as I was walking him home, so he and Zoe had meet-and-greet in Lisa's car. Then we picked up Slattery and Miggy and stopped at Roro's house to say hi to her and embarress the fuck out of her in front of EJ. Then we stopped at Lisa's to feed Baloo and drop of Zoe. We headed to JP. The 9:00 showing was sold out, so we bought tickets for the 10:00 showing, ate Panda Express, and headed over to Walmart for a lil bit. There, we all bought some stuff except Lisa (who attempted to steal eyeliner, but ditched it when the alarms went off, except it wasn't her that they were after, it was because a friend of Britt's we ran into hadn't done something involving her DVDs, I dunno what). So then we headed back to the movie theater and went in and the movie was fucking hilarious. Go see. Then I grabbed my shizzo from Lisa's car and then got into Mumsy's van and came home! Yay-hoo. That was my day. Gimpy called and woke me up this morning. Wanted to know Dan's dad's number. I then called Kwuh-igs and told him to call me about Lisa's movie night. Now I am here, plotting breakfast and shower! Tchüs! Mass Boredom Chat - Saturday, April 5, 2003, 01:05 p.m. Well, Belle and I were hella bored last night, so I started a boredom chat for old times sakes. It started off just me, Tiff, Belle, Amy, and Seren, but soon included many, many more people. I felt it was fairly successful...for the most part. It kept me out of boredom! Anyway, some things of note out of this chat...Seren invited Elise towards the end when it had begun to die down. Now, Elise still has me on block, so I decided it'd be best to not start any fights - especially since I'm really over whatever stupid squabble we had...I don't even remember anymore. Anyway. At first they talked about anime, which I'll admit, I'm 100% out of the loop of anymore, so I just kind of ducked down beneath Solitaire. But Krystal, the wonderful person she is, kept making sure that the rest of us were included. ^_^ Anyway. Then the topics shifted to FFXI, and then even quicker to KH. By the time Elise left, I felt almost as if nothing had ever happened between the two of us! ...almost. ^_^ Belle really got included, which made me feel good. A lot of times, I feel like Belle gets lost and has no clue what's going on. I know a lot of people get like that, me included sometimes, but she always helps me start the chats. Boredom Chats were kind of a Kell/Belle thing. =/ Anyway, next I have to get Steve involved more often, since he does good for awhile and then kinda fades. He's too much of a pushover! Then there's non-Adam Des Plainesians. (Since Adam basically doesn't care whether he's fitting in or not, he's himself and that's what I love about him. He's got so much confidence - at least online - and that's something I have never been able to say for myself.) Though they just have better things to do! =P @ Chua! Yes, so overall consensus. Boredom chat was a success! Anyway. Moving on. *irritated noise* My stupid mother! So, I'm supposed to clean the carpets today in hopes that I can get a new puppy after break, correct? She was going to go out after work and get a Rug Doctor so I could do it today while they were out picking up the boat and getting their hair cut. (Her and George.) HOWEVER. She came home normal time last night, NO RUG DOCTOR!!!!! So. I get up this morning, they're gone. I CAN'T CLEAN! >.<; And they don't have their cell phones on. Anyway, the garage door is open, soooo...as soon as they walk in, I stand in front of Mom, shove her back out the door, and make her go get a Rug Doctor! .....wishful thinking. lol. Oh good, they're going out to get it now. Says George. AND!!!!!!! All this time that I've been bothering James, get on AIM, I miss you, blah blah blah.....HE HAS BEEN GETTING ON WITH A NEW SCREEN NAME! AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! *irritated noise* So I added him to my buddy list, put him on twenty million alerts with sounds and bells and whistles and all that fun stuff so I can talk to him when he gets online. *sighs* I've just missed him so much, and I guess I kind of thought he might have missed me too...... *sighs* I guess I was wrong. I dunno, I could be wrong about that...he DID give me his new s/n... *sighs* I just....I just want to talk to him... *sighs* ~.~..... Well, now I'm going to fizzle out. ^_^ Peace! *sizzles* Ya know, I had fun tonight....but still. - Tuesday, April 1, 2003, 11:27 p.m. So. We went to Mick's tonight to play pool. It was me, Dunc-o (we were the original planners), Wes, Shlomo, Casey, Stash, and NICK!!! =D Anyway. So Dunc-o picked me and the two freshmen up and we all played around for awhile. Apparently, according to Dan and Wes, they've both heard I've smoked pot a lot. WTF?! NO!!!!! I hate rumors. It really pissed me off, cuz Duncan was acting like I'm this big pothead, and I just wanted to dig a hole and shove him into it. Maybe he'd land on the core of the earth and burn up. >.<; Grr. And he's trying to use me and Lisa for our weed, which pisses me off even more. Grrrrrrr!!!!! I've smoked ONE FUCKING TIME, and it's like suddenly I'm this huge pothead that everyone is convinced my brainstem is gone and that I'm going to start smoking cigs and drinking and NO!!!!!! I am not going to. I have smoked pot once. ONCE. END!!!!!!!!!!! >/ Grr...I'm sorry, but it really pisses me off that things have gotten this out of hand. And Nick. One - Brian broke up with Lydia. HELLO!!!!! DREAM BOY IS FREE! ...except I'm for the most part over him. Of COURSE. >.<; That would happen, wouldn't it? Two - why am I doing this to myself? It's like Dwenger Boy all over again.....almost. Not quite as bad. But it's really getting to me how much we act like we're going out when we aren't!!!! It's kind of like, okay, WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON WITH THIS?!?!?! And I know I was getting nasty looks all night from both Duncan and Shlomo. Okay, Duncan will probably never get over me (see: my Madison dillema) and Shlomo needs to see the difference between interested and friendship. Wes didn't really have a reaction to seeing me with another guy, which was kind of nice, and Stash was like he always was. Stash-like. And then there's this SHIT with Brandon. So I'm jokingly trying to convince him to join show choir, when he says "I'm going to ignore you 3" (meaning me, Tiff, and unknown party) and won't talk to me or respond to anything I say. So I tell him that if he won't respond, I'm calling him (and it's 10 his time, which will get him in trouble.) So I called, and got his dad, who was pissed off.... [Interruption of thought] Goddammit, I just heard Roxie and SHE'S NOT THERE....THIS is going to get to me by the end of the week ...and then soon he responded and said that he had to go. I was just kind of like....okay....good to know how important our friendship is.... And it really hurts, because I feel like Brandon and I have a really close friendship, and I don't want to see anything happen to it over something retarded like show choir. *sighs* Des Plainesians. Well, in better news, Chua and I are getting along really well. Just thought I'd mention a high point before I run. Tchüs! The first day of spring break! - Monday, March 31, 2003, 10:48 p.m. Well, I first woke up around 7 to my parents going nutso. Apparently George's alarm didn't go off on time or something along those lines. So then I got to try and fall back asleep and that didn't happen for awhile, but I finally did. Then I got back up around 11 and got online. Shlomo was on, so I started talking to him. We talked about the other night bowling and then he had to go, but then he called me. Asked if I wanted to do something today, I said sure. So, then mom came home and brought me Burger King, so I ate that and talked with her for awhile. Shlomo picked me up and we drove around a lil bit. First we stopped at his house, which is REALLY nice. Then we headed out to the Subway in New Haven (we were just driving and then that's where we ended up.) After eating, we trekked downtown to the Cinema Center, where we watched a movie all in Spanish. It was interesting, but confusing. (Not because I don't speak Spanish - there were subtitles.) After that, he drove me home. We talked and laughed the whole time we were together, it was great. It's a lot more comfortable now that he realizes that we're just friends and nothing else. =D Tiffany and I are trying to convince Adam and Brandon to join show choir. lol. I think it would be interesting if they were in it! I'm really hoping that the Des Plaines show choirs will be invited to our invitational or to an invitational we go to next year. Then I'd get to see Tiff and Mary! WOO! I'm s'posed to go up and visit for a week this summer, but now I wonder if Pseudo-Nazi (aka Mother) will let me. Maybe at least a day. =/ I've told her I plan on going, and she hasn't put up too much of a fuss, but we'll see when the time comes. *shrugness* Anyway, I'm gunna bounce. *boing!* GO SLINKY GO! - Wednesday, March 26, 2003, 07:00 p.m. ...so. Here goes. Today was show choir tryouts. OMG, WTF, I AM ON CRACK. Half way through the dance I completely forgot what I was doing, so I spun in a few circles and did the Millie dance break. Fuck. I'm sure my voice sounded like sheiss, so that doesn't help. GUESS WHO'S PROLLY STUCK IN ELITE FOR ANOTHER YEAR!!!!!!!! >.<; *cries* I can't believe I did that though. I really don't like this tryout method!!! Maybe I'll get lucky and get points for not stopping in the middle of the dance, but somehow, I don't give myself or the judges that much credit!!! Nick and I are getting really close. I'm really hoping that sooner or later he'll get off his ass and ask me out... I dunno, maybe I'm just ready to rush into things, but I really like him and for the MOST part, we're pretty much ACTING like we're going out, it's just not official yet. Today, he sat with us in the morning, and I put my arm around him like I do to all the freshman boyZ, and he reached up and held my hand. I was like, "awwww!" Then, we were walking together after lunch and after I had let go of dragging him around like I do Kyle after 6th period, and he (Nick, not Kyle) grabbed my hand and we walked holding hands!!! *^^* Back on the topic of show choir, I love the new incoming freshman from Woodside! lol. His name is Phillip, and I was talking to Kyle and I made a comment how I thought I had scared Phillip already and he wasn't even officially a freshman yet! lol, so Phillip was like, "No, you don't scare me! You seem very loveable!" I was like "OMG, I LOVE YOU!" Then I was talking to him and Trevor, and he is such a sweetheart! I was like *^^* Freshman are cute! lol. He's not even a freshman yet, though, soooo, yeah. But you get the point. And Hunter and I had fun before tryouts...we were in the dance room and playing with a giant ball when he knocked out a ceiling tile. XDDDD!!!! So we had to work to try and put the tile back in. It was pucking HILARIOUS! XD! Anyway, I just thought I'd share the story. And that's about it! Yay-hoo! Peace out, hunZ! Show choir! - Sunday, March 23, 2003, 03:01 p.m. Alright, so I got there at the godawful hour of ten till 6. *gag* But I looked gorgeous so it was okay. After wandering for about fourty-five minutes, I finally settled outside the solo room, where Tony was holding a jam session. Yay hoo. Finally the solos started, so I sat around and played student tool for awhile. Finally Lisa showed up and we were recruited to actually run around and find people for awhile. We got to walk around in between, and we ran into Nick, but didn't really stay long cuz we were supposed to be running. So we took care of that job until lunch time, at which point she ganked Jim and took off for Taco Bell (since my mom was being pseudo-nazi and wouldn't let me go), and I chilled with Shawn. He and I went back to the volunteer room to get some food and while I was back there, Bliss was like, B> "Kelly, here's your cookie." K> "My what?" B> "Your cookie." K> "Where is it?" B> "...over here." K> "I got a cookie?" lol, needless to say, she kinda walked away all pissy. I love annoying preps. XD! So, after I looked at it (they were cookie-grams...which is similar to how we used to send cheer grams at competitions for cheerleading and how you could buy flowers for people at DeKalb...) and went all "awww!" from how Nick send me a cookie, Shawn and I went out and sat with Katie and Ashley. Then Lisa joined us, and after I ate, Lisa and I returned to the solo room. I listened to the solos before getting to run sheets, but she took off soon to watch North Side, but Nick and Nate found me and joined me. =D! Anyway, then at break (2:15-2:55), I did my last run and then got ready for performance. I finished about 3, so I went back and finished the job for about an hour, before going back to the homeroom before warmups. Warm-ups went sloppily. We were basically all dicking around and not trying. The performance was about the same. *shrugs* Almost immidiately after, all of Elite filed into the front and sat to watch CR. We cheered. Omg, it was cute! When the band comes out in the end of the show, I yelled "go band" like I usually do, and Nick looked at me and smiled while playing! I was like "awwww!!!!" After they performed, I ran to change and got back in time to listen to the afternoon awards. None of the schools that made it interested me, but I knew from the minute this kid opened his mouth in the solo room who would win solo competitions. HE WAS FUCKING INCREDIBLE!!!!! =D Anyway, after that, I went into the cafeteria, where I discovered the band kidZ. I stood behind Nick and rubbed all the gel out of his hair and gave him back rubs and stuff before I got bored and sat down. (lol, while I was playing with Nick's hair, Trevor's like "Kelly, you always play with everyone's hair! Why don't you play with mine!") Well, Nick put his arm around me and it was cute. =D We talked a lot to Andy Wagner and Nate before we decided to wander aimlessly. After ditching their band stuff, Nate and Andy wound up going home and Nick, Jim, Andy Wirtner, Shawn and I sat around a table in the cafeteria. We talked about all kinds of stuff at the table, from prejudices and bigotry, me being bisexual, Jim being mean for saying "not again" when I went to rub his head, and more. And Nick volunteered to give me a foot massage when I just rested my feet in his lap. I was like "omg, you are awesome!" When Andy and Shawn left, we talked about Nick's parents being pseudo-nazis with him dating, and how his mom figured out that he had a date to Morp. He slipped at one point and said his mom knew he had a girlfriend but didn't know me and when he went to go get food, I was like "JIM!!! WHAT JUST HAPPENED?!?!?!?" So Jim took him aside and found out he slipped. Well, then he had to leave, and Jim and I were recruited for cleaning up the orchestra room. While Jim and I cleaned, Trevor and Kristy joined us, and as soon as we finished, Trevor and I started hitting a balloon around. That was fun, lol. Well, we wound up all bailing after that, and then Jim and I wandered up to the front of the school where no one could recruit us for any more jobs. We sat and talked about all kinds of stuff before Big Quig made the announcement for us to move our stuff from the homerooms to the choir room. Well, we did so, and then Jim, Brett, Kyle, and I "took the long way around" to go take risers apart, but we wound up stopping and hanging out in a corner by the health rooms where no one would see us. lol, we shoved Kyle out where people saw him and he got roped into it, but the three of us wound up goofing around in the corner the rest of the night. Oh, it was awesome. Then we cleaned up, and suddenly a rush of tiredness and horniness kicked in and I was like AHHHH!!! Anyway, I helped clean what I could and then we were dismissed and I came home! Yay hoo. Sleep. That was my day yesterday. I'm sure I left stuff out but OH WELL! =D It doesn't doesn't always make sense. - Sunday, March 16, 2003, 1:04 p.m. See, I’m trying to figure this out. I can go to a restaurant with my folks and have every busboy there checking me out and stuff. (Honestly, it happened. We were at Triangle Park last night and all of the busboys kept it up – George and Mom made the original comment about it, not me.) I can hang out with three freshmen for three days and one of them be totally shocked that I can’t get a date. I can go to the movies and have two guys that work there start checking me out, so much that one tries to mop up my feet, before realizing there’s nothing there. I can be told again how pretty I am by numerous male friends. Yet, why is it that when it comes down to it, I wind up without the people I want? *shrugs* Just wondering to myself, not really looking for an answer. I went to see Chicago with my folks yesterday. It was GREAT. Seriously. It was like Moulin Rouge only 123987348975.2x (can’t forget the point two) better. Seriously. GO SEE IT! My favorite quote is thus: “I started fooling around. Then I started screwing around, which is basically fooling around without dinner.” XD! Catherine Zeta-Jones is fucking HOTT!!! And who woulda guessed that Richard Gere can sing?? Anyway, like I said, go go go and SEE IT! Or I will personally beat you. And when you’re done, buy me the soundtrack. =D Then we went to eat. First we checked Outback. Full as shit. We moved on to Logan’s. Just as bad. After talking a bit, we decided to head off to Triangle Park. It was kinda far off, but Mom and I were set on steak. So after a half hour wait, we were seated. I ordered the 12 oz. Prime Rib. MMMMM!!! OMG, it is TO DIE FOR! I’m hard pressed to say whether it’s better than Outback, though. I suppose part of it makes me want my cheese fries. lol. Anyway, so yeah, we had a family bonding night. “Family bonding? What’s that???” XD! I beat FFX. Again. I knew I wasn’t going to be getting any more ultimate weapons anytime soon, so I said fuck it and went through Sin. OMG, can we say EASY?! Seriously, I’ve fought harder regular battles (see: Marlboro, Demonolith.) e.e; I was hoping for much more. I s’pose it’s cuz my chars rock, but ya know!!!! When I beat it here was the final tallies: Yuna – had been through her sphere grid, Lulu’s, Rikku’s, Kimhari’s, and ¼ of Tidus’s Tidus – had been through his sphere grid, Auron’s, Wakka’s, and ½ of Yuna’s (was going backwards) Auron – had been through his sphere grid, Tidus’s, Kimhari’s, and had just started Wakka’s Lulu – had been through her sphere grid, Yuna’s, and ¾ of Rikku’s Wakka – had been through his sphere grid, Auron’s, and ¾ of Tidus’s Rikku – had been through her sphere grid, Yuna’s, and ¾ of Lulu’s Kimhari – had been through his sphere grid, Tidus’s, and 7/8 of Wakka’s I also had Yuna’s and Auron’s ultimate weapons completed, and obtained everyone’s except Tidus and Wakka. I had all the aeons, too. Yay hoo for Magus Sisters! lol. And once again, the ending is very disappointing. I suppose they’re setting up for a sequel though. Well, I have no more left to say, and I might be ungrounded today! YAYYY!!! OH!!! AND LISTEN TO MY VOICE MAIL!!! XDDD!!! YAY FOR MOCKING THE AMERICAN NATION!! Anyway. Peace! Right. So. - Sunday, March 9, 2003, 5:49 p.m. Well, it’s been about a week since I’ve written, so here goes. We’ll start with Monday. I had fallen asleep on the couch or was playing FFX or maybe a combination of both, when Mom tells me the phone is for me and it’s Jim. So I pick up and I ask what’s up, and he tells me he doesn’t really want to go to Morp. I’m a little bothered, but I told him that was alright, it was his choice. I couldn’t force him to go. Well, then I expected him to get off the phone right away after that (see: how I was after I broke up with Matt), but we then stayed on the phone for another 45 minutes or so, talking about Mr. Koczergo and the musical and stuff. *sighs* Yeah. So. Then I called Lisa to tell her what was up. We talked for a bit, mostly about she and Andi (goddammit, if he doesn’t ask her out soon, I’m seriously going to go anal). Then her dad had to use the phone, so I called Brittany Slattery. We talked for awhile until I got a beep, and it was Lisa again. We talked a good bit, then she was going to call me right back. I took advantage of that time to call Brian. I left a message with his dad (god DAMN he’s scaring me), and soon after Lisa called back. Soon, I had a message on my cell ((it didn’t ring for some reason)), and it was Brian. So I called him back and we talked for about a half an hour about how I thought he seemed kinda angry with me, and then after clearing that up, we talked a bit about a bunch of random things. Then I called Lisa back and we talked about what I should do for Morp. Wednesday was another wonderful meeting of group. We had a new addition, but as usual, I am keeping secret anyone who’s not out yet. (We have two of em right now.) However, I am sure Betsy, Tricia, Shannon, Madison, and Aaron don’t mind their names being shouted to the world. Anyway. In group I started to like Madison again. I know, I know. Smack me. Lisa already did. Yesterday, when we were walking out to Lisa’s car, Madison and I put our hands up and just kept them there. After Madison left, Lisa’s like “You REALLY have to stop that.” Also, Wednesday, Mrs. Byrne made the ever-popular announcement that Elite next year is only doing three competitions, as well as a couple other things I have forgotten that also PISSED ME OFF. So the past few days, I’ve been pissing and moaning that if I don’t make Class Royale, I don’t do show choir. Okay, I probably will. But you know what? THAT IS NOT COOL!!!! $400. 3 competitions. I am paying to perform, not learn some stuff and do it in class. I’ll take concert choir if that’s what I want to do. Honestly. So, yeah, I’m definitely saying I had better get Class Royale!!!! I got an I.S.S. (in school suspension) today for having my cell phone with me. Yay. Hoo. No. I serve Monday. In fact, today was just sucky in general. We had a sub that made us work in German, Shlomo was hitting on me again today, Lisa wasn’t at lunch or block, Jim’s friends decided that they hated me, Cocoa was really awkward around me, then Jim did the same thing when I went to go see him in Block, the ISS, had to ride the bus home… I think the only high points were as thus: - Church boy (JT) wore a suit today. He looked so cute!!! (I still have his glasses from where I sat with him on the busride home.) - The block essay the first half of Block went fairly well. I feel fairly confident, even though, as usual, I have not read the book. - Britney told me Jake is on spring break this week, so we’re talking about getting together and doing something again. And that has been today. Nothing else new and exciting this week. Though I’m noticing a trend among my freshman…with the exception of Kyle (yeah, Kyle!), they are all suddenly avoiding me… Cleveland - super trip! - Sunday, March 9, 2003, 5:49 p.m. Breaking news: Brian is out in that field. THAT IS RIGHT!!!!! I am giving up on Monsieur Quigs and letting him just go to be friends. However. I have replaced him as the “unattainable” with Danny Panyard. >.<; I’m so bad at choices. Right. So, we’ll start with Thursday. We were supposed to go to school for half a day and then leave right after lunch for Cleveland. Well, we got a two hour delay, and Mom said I could stay home and sleep, and then she’d come and pick me up and take me back to school since I had too much shit to take to school to “ride the bus.” (I’m not going to tell her that I don’t ride it on 2-hour delays!!!) So. I slept in and then about 8, the phone rang. I figured it was my mom, so I’m like, “Yeah?” “Kelly? It’s Jess. School is cancelled.” “For good?” “…uh…yeah…but we’re still going to Cleveland. We need to be there at 11:30.” So then I called Mom and told her. When I got there, I chilled and talked to Laura Enos for awhile, and talked to Mike Ganszhorn and Danny Wolfe (who has taken to calling me Kels lately, and it makes me think of Chibs, kinda. Now Wolfie and I are even, though, cuz he and I both have a million nicknames for each other.) Then we divided up into which bus we wanted to sit on so Mrs. Byrne could make sure numbers and shizzo worked out. I gravitated over to bus #1 cuz my band buddies (Danny, Andrew, etc.) were over there, as was Brian. I sat down and Tony Ensch sat down next to me and was like “Don’t worry, this doesn’t mean I’m sitting with you on the bus. Unless, of course, you don’t have someone else to sit with…” I told him I thought I was sitting with Brian, but I wasn’t sure. So Tony asks Brian who he’s sitting with, and Brian pretends to scan the room and then points at me with a huge smile on his face. “I choose YOU!” It made me think of my SR scene with Cerulean and Linnaeus. So we boarded the buses and stuff, and alles war gut. We watched Ferris Bueller, and then they put in Moulin Rouge. Part of the way through the movie, we stopped at our lunch stop and I had Panera. =9 Then Tara and I shopped a bit at the gift shop. After we loaded back on the busses, I was tired, so I used Quigs as a pillow and slept until we got to the hotel. There, Kellie and I found out that we were the only two in our room. We headed upstairs and I had claimed the bed, but she refused to take the couch, so we wound up sharing the king sized bed. Next I ran into Carol, Nick, and Kellye Friesen, and they wanted me to come exploring with them. We climbed the stairs all the way up to the 22nd floor (there were 24, but the elevators only went to 13.) We looked out the windows for a while then used the apartment elevators to go down to the 7th floor – a hotel floor. Then we went the rest of the way downstairs and a group was getting ready to go to Second City. I really wanted to go, but I had stuff I wanted to do first. I went up to my room to get a pop, and then I found out they had left. I was annoyed. So I went with Kellie and Joel down to the pool and swam for about five, and then decided that it was too group-oriented and none of my groups were there, so I went into the sauna with Tara. A bunch of us girls sat in the sauna and talked and then after I left, I sat with Kellie and Joel and a couple others outside Joel’s room and chilled and got some girls kicked out of Brian’s room. (Brian and Tony had invited me to come watch them play poker, and while I was outside Joel’s room, I watched Ericha and Elyse go in there, and then I asked Mrs. Motter if I was allowed in, and she said no cuz it was a guys’ room, so Kellie told her that they were in there.) Next, I went with Laura Furr and Bliss to Subway next door and ate that. Then we had our little show choir meeting and then went back to our rooms. Kellie and I stayed up late talking about Joel (I kept trying to change the subject, but we all know how impossible THAT is…) Then after they did room checks, I took my shower and went to bed. The next day, Kellie and I headed downstairs and got breakfast. I sat with her and Joel, which was kinda, um, awkward. I didn’t stick around, though, and wound up chilling in the lobby for awhile, waiting for the rest of the group. Everyone was trying to convince guys to be their partners in the dance classes, but I just kinda dealt with it. Then when we got there, I was sitting with the band freshman, Nick (Cocoa), Nate, and Danny Panyard, when he announced what the different swing and ballroom classes were. I asked Danny if he’d be my Foxtrot partner for the first class, and he said sure. Ohhh, we had soooo much fun. We are both decent dancers but not awesome, so anytime we’d mess up we would start laughing. Then we went to a hip-hop class together, but stupid Team 2 missed our second classes and had to go unload. We were all pissed as puck. But we get credit and those who didn’t go don’t. So alles sind gut. Then I got back in time to see the people in my class do the full hip-hop dance, and Danny was like “Don’t watch me!!!” so I did to spite him. He was so cute. Then I ate lunch with him and the other band freshman and we compared notes about the classes and since Kristy and Danny were supposed to be doing Tango together, I talked Cocoa into being my partner, and Andy (the junior bone player that hangs with them sometimes) and Nate followed. I didn’t have a partner for a while because Kristen Corah ganked Cocoa before I could get to him, but then I wound up dancing with Danny most of the time. Kristy would get jealous and come over and try and get him to dance with her, but then he came back to me. =D! The next class was supposed to be the beginning of the band classes, and I was staying for Salsa. Danny made me promise I would teach him back at the hotel, but then Mike Ganszhorn came over and told the four of them that they HAD to stay because he REFUSED to be the only band member not there. So they stayed. After we learned our separate parts, Jean Paul (who I swear to god Aaron needs to meet cuz he is SO his type), he told us to pick partners, and instantly Danny and I went to each other. We worked together a lot, and then after switching partners a few times, I worked a lot with Matt Vachon (he’s a cute CR kid, but I swear he’s gay and he reminds me a LOT of Theory’s Shawn, only blonde and a little cuter – no offense Aaron and Shawn!) and Chris Reed. Chris and I were having a lot of fun with it and getting really pissed with Jean Paul. lol. So, then the band guys went off to their class, so I went to a vocal class. Twas kinda pointless, but that’s okay. It was a decent class to wind down, and I didn’t hear anything good about any of the other classes offered. So. Anyway. Then we loaded the busses back up and Danny and I were saying that he was gunna go work out, and I would swim while he did, then after he jumped in the pool a bit and cooled off, we’d go work on our dance moves. Well, I went down to the pool right when we got back to the hotel to wind down some more, and then the pizza got here. I ate about a piece, nearly gagged, and went down to the lobby for a lil while. Then Ashley, Emily Policinski and I snuck around with some Kartholl brownies that Momma Sawyer had helped Ashley gank from the guys’ room. After I had about 7 or so, I went down and swam a little more. I chilled with Hunter and Tony in the pool, and their big thing was dunking me. Finally, after I started hanging onto the ladder, Hunter and I just started talking about me & Brian, then me & Madison, and finally me & Danny (I had to tell him why I was feeling kinda good about giving up on Brian, because by this time, I had started to. He was never really around anymore, and how can you actually like a guy that’s never around to talk to?) Then Danny showed up so I went to go ask him what was going on and he said we were gunna go dancing in the Salon rooms, so I pulled on my tank top and boxers and shoes and went up to the room, and the guys were severely outnumbered, so Cocoa, Nate, Danny, and I took off to go find more people. We wound up chilling outside their room for longer than we had planned, and when we finally went back, we had only found one more person. Then Danny and I danced around a lot and any time we got confused, we’d square dance around the room. It was soooo much fun. Kristy kept trying to gank him, but he’d always try to gravitate away. Then Class Royale came in for a pillow signing – that was a CR/backup band/Crew spirit gift, pillows with a group picture. I was getting ready to leave, but Momma Panyard said I could stay. (Earlier that day, when she was telling Danny & them about it, and I made a “I’m in Elite” comment, she was like “Honey, join Class Royale! Haven’t you seen all the cute guys?” lol.) So most of the band and a couple CR members had me sign their pillows, and then the guys and I went back to the pool. On our way down, Danny and I started a sing-a-long of Elephant Love Medley from Moulin Rouge. Okay, so he’s definitely NOT a singer, but it was still fun. We swam around and Hunter was still there. He came over and dunked me, so then it became a big war – guys VS. me. Then TJ joined us, and he joined in too. Nate couldn’t really get me very well, but he managed. Hunter and TJ dunked the hell outta me. Danny kept trying but couldn’t get me under, so I dunked him instead!!!! LOL! XD! Finally he got me close to dunk-ness, and then couldn’t go any further, so Hunter came over and helped him. We wouldn’t let him live it down.) Then they started doing water-lifts with me, until I had to rush off to the Elite meeting at 9:20. We sat in the room while Mrs. Cook and Mrs. Furr and Mrs. Lutrell gave their usual “mom” speeches, and then Jess and I ran out when they said pictures. I had been wearing my towel like a cape and yelled “BATMAN!!!” when I ran. XD! When I got back to the pool, another group coming out told me it was closed. So as I continued down the hall, I hear my band freshmen’s voices and I sing out “Love makes us act like we our fools…throw our lives away for one happy day!” And Danny instantly responded with “We could be heroes!” It was funny. We went downstairs and I waited while they changed, and then me, Danny, TJ, Nate, Cocoa and Emily Fitch started to ride the elevator in boredom. We hit every floor on our way up, and after we got to the 13th floor, we ran into Caitlin Johnston and her crew, who’d had a similar idea. Well, they went to one stairwell to go down, so we decided to go the other way. *nods* We went down and sat outside their room for awhile and hung out until a woman came out and asked us to be quiet. Then we went outside my room and discussed if we looked like a bad bunch. We decided yes because 1.) I have orangey hair. 2.) Cocoa is a white guy with an afro who is always out of it. 3.) Nate is a black guy without an afro. 4.) TJ has an earring. That made Danny and Emily the good part. lol. Then we sat in the stairwell and talked for awhile until Mrs. Motter told us we were having room checks in five minutes. So I gave Danny his good night hug, but then the other guys expected them too, so I hugged them too. >.>; lol. I went back to the room, showered, and climbed into bed. I was dead asleep, when next thing I know, a fire alarm is going off and I hear “This is an emergency. Please evacuate the building. Do not use the elevators. This is an emergency. Walk calmly down the stairs.” I’m completely out of it, but apparently I yelled at Kellie to wake up, grabbed my own blanket (seeing as how I was wearing a tank top and boxers, that’s prolly a good idea), and we ran. I seem to remember thinking to myself about 1 – getting off at the fifth floor to ride the elevator down and 2 – running into Danny. Anyway, Kellie says we made it to about the fourth floor before someone came down and stopped us, telling us it was a false alarm. We got back up to the room and…neither of us had a key. So I shivered under my blanket while one of the chaperones went downstairs and got us one. We went back to bed, and eventually fell asleep. The next morning, I woke up a little late, but eventually made it down to breakfast. After eating real fast, I took off to the lobby and lounged in my usual chair. Then we loaded the busses and were off. When we got there, I chilled in the Class Royale room for a while, cuz I didn’t realize that Elite had kept walking until someone brought me into our room for yet ANOTHER group picture. Then when that was over, we went down to the auditorium thingy and did a run-through. We were pathetic, but that was kind of intentional. Then CR got up and did one and all of Elite was practically in tears laughter because Tom Stoffel was basically just moving his mouth like a frog in time of the words. I felt so bad, but I couldn’t help it! Then we all migrated to the solo room and watched Kristy’s solo. After she was done, Elite all had to go get ready, which was disappointing because I wanted to see the other Homestead soloists. So I got ready, dressed, hair, makeup, and I had just painted my last nail when…they announced we were going on a half hour later. So Mrs. Furr, knowing we were hungry, took orders for McDonalds, then I changed back out of my dress, left everything else on, and took off to the halls. My band freshman and Emily were eating Taco Bell, so I went back into the Elite room and pulled out my chocolate frosting. Danny was very intrigued by it, so I went and produced a spork my mummy had packed and then he ate with me. Soon, Antoine, the head guy, told us that if we were eating, we had to move into the rooms, so the group of us went into the CR room. Cocoa and Andy took the chairs, Emily sat on the floor next to us, and Nate stood behind them. Danny was using his trumpet case, so I kicked him off and flipped it over so we could both sit there. Then Mrs. Furr came in and I asked her how much time we had to get ready. Five minutes. I whigged out and ran back into the other room and changed. After I came out, we went and got yet ANOTHER group picture taken, this time on a huge marble steps thing, and then were informed we had fifteen minutes until warm ups. So I sat with Wolfie and some other people and talked to them. Then, when we went into warm ups, Danny Panyard started his long string of times of wishing me good luck with the first one. We ran through the show, and then took off. Our performance was not that great. There was NO dynamic contrast, and very little energy up on stage. We had nothing to feed off of with one another. Then we took everything down and went back to the rooms and changed. We cheered for Class Royale going to the warm up room, and then took off for the auditorium. Ganking the front three rows, we led the auditorium in Homestead-related cheers. Bliss, Tara, Laura Furr, and I were leaders. Then there was the performance. Susan had to take Sam’s solo because Sam’s voice went out, so Susan kinda messed it up, not knowing all of it, and they weren’t very energetic. It was NOT their best performance, for sure. Also, the backdrop never changed. *shrugs* Anyway, we didn’t get to do any specifics cheers like usual, but we still cheered. I went back to the rooms and the first thing Danny Panyard said to me was “You didn’t do the usual go band cheer! No one cheered for me!” So I promised him I would at finals. I had to use the restroom, and he needed a drink, so we took off and then we were around the corner while he drank. We talked about all kinds of stuff and after about, say, twenty minutes, Emily joined us. She just kinda listened. Then Cocoa and Nate came looking for us. When the FINALLY found us, Nate told me that to save his life (he said I could kill him and Cocoa if they didn’t teach me how to play Magic this competition), I was going to learn Magic then and there. I informed him Danny volunteered to teach me. Nate took off after Danny to kill HIM, and then we found the whole group of us up in the back of the auditorium. We wound up sitting down and goofing off. After Hurricane High School (which we didn’t watch most of – I was not impressed by their show…their only plus was their lifts), Danny was stuck in his chair, so the rest of us went to leave. We’re so mean, lol. Well, then I wanted to go on a photo exhibition of the place, so I left them there, but didn’t make it far cuz I ran into Jim and TJ and Hunter and some others sitting around. I sat down next to Jim and we started talking about something when we overheard the others talking about gays. Then he and I complained about religions and prejudices and stuff. Then he came with me back to the band freshman. I watched Danny defeat Cocoa in Magic (I still don’t understand) and then Jim had just challenged Nate to a game when Antoine told everyone in the halls that prelim awards were starting soon. So we took off for the auditorium. Jim and Danny pushed and shoved to sit next to me and Jim won. lol. The choir that performed before prelims was a non-competing middle school choir, and they were SO cute. Better than Class Act! Then they announced solo finalists. Kaitlin Fumarolo made it, but they announced her name wrong, Kaitlin Pearson, so some of us declared that Kaitlin and Bridget Pearson were recently married. lol. Then they picked show order in the same order of our placements, and of course Elite was in 6th, but CR was in 4th!!! The group became really subdued and just kinda pittered along back to the rooms to eat and then get ready. No one wanted to perform; we were so upset. Well, Elite went 2nd in the show (CR was supposed to, but Kaitlin was the 2nd soloist to perform), and our show went MUCH better this time. I think we were all so mad that our angry energy had nowhere to go BUT into the show. *shrugs* Just a thought. Then we changed back and Ashley and I went to go wait for CR to go on. We couldn’t go in until the 3rd choir was done performing, so we talked a little about Brian. I gave up just in time, because she informed me that he liked Elyse. Of course. So I was really upset going into the auditorium and picked a spot where he would be hidden behind the speakers anytime I might be tempted to look at him. I was ready to cry, even if I had already given up. However, our cheering quickly made me feel a lot better, and I even got in “GO JIMS!” “GO PUPPY KATZ!” “GO BAND!” “YEAH DANNY PANYARD!” and “DANNY PANYARD I LOVE YOU!” The show was INCREDIBLE and possibly the best they’ve ever done. I took pictures. =D! I went back to the rooms and the first thing Danny said was “I heard you!!” =D! Then the band boys changed. Ganszhorn and I led a procession to go get pop, but all they had was Diet Pepsi. I bought Mike one anyway. He drank most of it and then tried to put me in a trashcan, so I made him give it back. Soon after, Nate and Danny got the bright idea to surround me and try and put me in. Well, Danny couldn’t get me high enough, but I still had Mike’s Diet Pepsi in my hands half open, so I started spilling pop on Danny’s shoulder on purpose. >D! He finally put me down, and soon we started playing a game they played a lot in band camp a lot called “Big Booty.” It was a lot of fun. We were going crazy with it. Finally Antoine told us that finals would be starting after this next choir, so we went in and watched the last choir. After making fun of their outfits and me and Danny coming up with a girl to represent the non-existent “Tiffany” his trumpet is named after (so he can make out with her while playing), the boys followed Quigley up to the balcony to look over. They soon came back in fear though, lol. Danny had been sitting next to me before he left, but he was the second back of the boys, and soon Nate was about to take his seat, so he leaped over the railing to sit next to me again. Woo hoo! Then, we went down to sit with the rest of Homestead for the finals so we could be a part of the cheers. The cheers were fun, because a lot of times they wound up being wars between three schools. It was enjoyable. Then awards. Kaitlin took fourth. Elite took sixth. When they announced fourth and CR hadn’t been announced yet, we all edged forwards on our seats. Third – Hurricane high school. They then announced caption awards. Best combo…Mentor High School. Best choreography…Mentor. Best vocals…Homestead Class Royale. Danny and I grabbed each others’ hands, and then I grabbed Cocoa’s (I’m trying to avoid being as obvious as I was with Quigs), and started to stare intently. First runner up…………MENTOR HIGH SCHOOL!!!!!!! We leaped up and just started hugging EVERYONE. When they finally announced that we had taken GRAND CHAMPIONS!!!!!!!!!, everyone rushed the stage and took their medals. I looked around and the other Elite girls were all “aww, boo hoo, we took sixth,” and I’m like “WHO THE FUCK CARES?!?!?!?!?” Anyway, I went back to the rooms to wait for CR to come back, and then more hugs and more pictures, and some singing of “Cleveland Rocks” before we finally got onto the bus. They announced that we had a mandatory meeting in the atrium after got back and got rid of our stuff. I went up to the room, dropped my bag off, and went back to the atrium. I walk in, and Mike Panyard asks me if I want this bowl of ice cream with whipped cream, raspberry topping, and crushed cookies. I say sure and take it, before realizing that there is a whole ice cream buffet next to me!!!!!! I took a table and sat down. Soon, Tony sets his stuff down with mine and then goes to get a bowl. When he comes back, we talk about dances and he tells me that he’s thinking of asking Ericha to prom (I don’t like her but,) I told him I thought it was cute. I told him I was thinking of asking Jim to Morp. He commented that we could go together, and I thought to myself “if I can’t find a date, I already HAVE someone that wants to go with me, but I kind of want to find my own date first and THEN I ask Steve if not, but if STEVE couldn’t go, then MAYBE I would ask Tony…” Anyway, then I got Nate to sit at our table, which got the rest of my band freshman with us. Then I convinced Jim to sit with us, and I was wearing his stuffed monkey around my neck (it velcros) when I said I wanted to take it to Morp. He was like “I’m okay with that…a little hurt…but okay.” So I was like “Then WE can go together!!!” “Sure!” It was cute. *^^* Then we wished Tara and Ashley happy birthdays, as it was officially Sunday then. Next, the freshman band boys and I chilled on some couches. Danny sat next to me until I attacked him to get Reeses from him. Well, I failed, and Kristy dragged him away (him yelling that it wasn’t part of the deal of his rescue that he go with her) but he didn’t stay moved for long. We packed up though when the last of the parents left the atrium. I gave the boys their hugs good night and went up to my room. I called Mom and told her how we did and then showered. It was about 1:30 when I finally crawled into bed. I dozed off quickly, but 1:50, the phone rings. It’s Joel. I was PISSED, because then Kellie stayed up IN THE ROOM, ON THE BED talking with lovey-dovey “I love you, I miss you, you mean the world to me,” etc. etc. Ugh. Eventually, I fell asleep after she hung up, but it took awhile. We loaded busses the next morning (this morning), and almost right after we got on the bus, I used Brian as a pillow again and slept. I woke up towards the end of the first movie, which was Newsies. Almost right after it was over, we stopped at our lunch stop, which was really a waste of time, since all they had was a Cinnabon. So I got a Vanilla Coke and soon we loaded the busses back up. We put in Big Daddy and watched that all the way through. During the movie, they were passing around the unsigned pillows and people were signing all around me. Tony asked me to sign his, so I felt even more special. Yay for CR people who love me! Right after the movie was over, Ericha and Elyse started talking to Brian about how he plans on breaking up with Lyd tonight. Feeling a little uncomfortable, I shuffled back to the back where my band freshmen were sitting. Danny and I talked about Honors Bio, and then his Reeses in his bag. He was counting up how many he had and was like “I gave two to Andy, I had one, Nate had one, Cocoa had one, I threw one to you.” “You threw me one?!?!” We decided that was what hit me on the head while I was sleeping against the window and bounced into Keith’s seat. (Keith is our new bassist.) I talked to him for a bit and then went back up, trading Kyle spaces and got my stuff together. We pulled into the HHS parking lot and all the parents were waiting there with a huge sign and clapping for us. It was GREAT. Then Mum and I rode home and I called Theory back from where he called me. Yay hoo! lol. Anyway, so now here I am, and I need to call Lisa since I feel kinda weird for not having called her yet and I have a LOT to tell her!!! Ciao! This is your badness level....desserts! - Sunday, March 4, 2003, 9:08 p.m. XD! We’ve been watching Lilo and Stitch in Elite lately. Good, good movie. =D Tryouts didn’t go too poorly. I’m ultra-nervous about callbacks being posted tomorrow. Cross your fingers, hold your breath, wish me luck, is it over yet? lol, I think I made that up in like sixth grade. XP! Ah, well, if I made it, I make it, if not, sophomore year was just a drought of talent. lol. *big, cocky smile* OMG, when going home from auditions, I asked Mike Griffith if he could give me a ride home, so it was me, him, and Hunter in the car. THEY WERE SO FUCKING HILARIOUS! They’d be like “It is like you Brett Hunter, it is not ze straight, it is ze gay!” Omg, I died laughing. They kept feeding off each other. Mike> “The world is shrinking.” Me> “Hey, look, Australia!” Brett> “It iz not shrinking zat much, zilly!” Mike> “How zzzztupid!” Brett> “Look, England!” Mike> “You are ze stupid!” Brett> “No, really, I saw England!” Mike> “Oh, let’s go back and visit someday.” Twas great. XD! Moving on. Today was actually a very productive session with Lorraine. *GASP!* For one, Mummy Dearest didn’t come in with me, so Lorraine and I were actually able to talk. Mostly we focused on my relationships with my parental units (3 of them anyway, not Marilyn), and my brother. I made the analogy that George was my dad, Dad was an uncle, Mom left me alone until her other child was gone completely before deciding to focus at all on me, and other stuff. We also talked about whether or not it was worth it for my mom and I to get really close since I think she won’t live much longer than 10-15 years. (See: smokes and is 35+ lbs. underweight, Mummy is about 90 lbs. and 5’5”.) *shrugs* It really did make me think a lot and I think she really understands where I’m coming from, now. Though I don’t think the ran away/kicked out thing will EVER be settled….remember when Kai-kai was kicked out last year when I was living at Dad’s??? Marilyn claimed the other day he ran away!! Parents VS Children. Next reality TV show? $___$ I surprisingly don’t feel inclined to break grounding right now. Like, sure, I’d like to get on and talk to people, but I feel like I deserve this punishment. Breaking it would be stupid, because then I’d just be being stupid. Do you understand where I’m coming from or….? I also have a lot to think about right now, and I’d bet that getting online would distract me from that. This shit with Lisa is really making me distraught, and now stupid Chicago is due to get a shitload of snow (*glares at her resident Des Plainesians*) so their Ecology field trip is postponed. Well, without her on the Cleveland trip, I will be able to simmer, and on top of that, she’s acting more subdued with her arm out of commission from the IV in it, etc. etc. Max certainly left her a gift…! Speaking of dogs. I’m worried about Roxie. The vet said she’s like 80% to liver failure. ;_; She’s also really really skinny. Seriously, I was petting her earlier, and she was pretty much all skin and bones under her thirty million layers of fur! =/ Pobre puppy-ito. I’ve already told my mom that I will BE THERE when she is put down or ELSE. I also will want a new dog. I know that sounds insensitive, but I could not deal with a one-dog house. It would be too empty. I already have trouble when Roxie is just disappeared into the bedrooms! I don’t think I want another American Eskimo. In fact, more than that, I don’t want another stupid dog. But I do want it to be another female, because Jake is so dominant alpha male about everything. Maybe I’ll get a Beagle and name her…umm…OH! I can name her Splash! =D I always wanted a dog named Splash…okay, it was supposed to be a Doberman when I bred, but this will do. *nods* Anyway, enough is enough, I’m already a page and a quarter into this entry. TOO MUCH! TOO MUCH! =D Hasta, it sounds like pasta! Survey says! - Sunday, March 2, 2003, 8:43 p.m. KATIE CAME DOWN TO VISIT!!!!!! =DDD It was so cool. I gave her the ICP shirt for her Christmas present. Her friend Mike, his girlfriend Megan, and their friend John all came with her. I asked Mom if we could go see BgW for a bit, and we did. But he was being a boring host, so we didn’t stick around long. Then we went to go get food and then drove home. When I got home, George yelled at me a bit (I had forgotten to tell him and Mom that Katie was coming…I know I screwed up, so I already apologized for that.) and then I gave them the tour of the house. Mike is a video gamer, so I was showing him my meek PS2 collection, and Katie decided she wanted to see me play Kingdom Hearts. So Katie and John were entranced as Mike and I worked on my saved game and Megan complained that she was bored. lol. Sounds like we stayed at Wes’s. XD! It was totally awesome, and I can’t wait to see them again!!! Oh, but final consensus for not telling Mom: 2 weeks grounded from net and going places. *shrugs* That’s not bad. OH OH OH!!! I was looking through all my pictures after I had finished CGing a drawing that I did a couple months back, and OMG! YOU WILL NOT GUESS WHAT I FOUND! Well, first, I had run across the first set of Katie’s Homecoming pics, so I looked and I found Megan in the group pic, and of course I was like “It’s Katie and Brandon! *^^*” But I continued down, and everything was in time order, so I run across KatieBrandonHomecomingGroup2.jpg. I tilt my head and look at the preview and suddenly “OMG! KEVIN! BARRY!!! MARY!!!” I opened up and looked at it, giggled, and then moved on. It excited me. XD! I’m ultra-nervous about auditions tomorrow. I mean, I’ve been practicing like craaaazy, and I still miss some rhythms with all that syncopation. I’ll bet Jocelyn could sing it a cappella with perfect rhythms. >.<; No, I’m not going to do that to myself. If I compare myself to Jocelyn, or Caitlin Johnston (who isn’t trying out thank god), or someone that Koczergo loves because she’s so much more stereotypically “Homestead” than me……all I can do is just try my best and hope that my best is good enough for a good part. This isn’t about them. It’s about me. I don’t mean that to sound self-centered…I mean it to boost my own confidence about this thing. *big, over-exaggerated smile of confidence* Go Kelly! e.e; Well, I’m going to bitch at FFX some more, and then see if I can get my fucking ultimate weapons yet. Peace out, mah bruthas! >D Suddenly all the incest jokes stop being funny. - Friday, February 28, 2003, 11:34 p.m. AGH. *falls over...twitches...dies* I don't want random ass. I don't want making out. I don't want physical jackshit. And even if I did, I WOULD NOT WANT IT WITH SOMEONE THAT I THINK OF AS A BROTHER!!!!! Nick Shifley came over. We were just watching Goldmember and horsing around (see: Like me and Stash do) and next thing I know, he's got ahold of me and making out with me. >.<;; IT'S LIKE FUCKING KISSING YOUR BROTHER! I also have that same pothead taste in my mouth that I got after making out with Dan....only stronger, because Nick is a more frequent user. >.<; I want Brian. My Quigs. My good Quigs who wouldn't do that and who wouldn't come over and jump a girl like that. Though I would probably jump HIM first, but that's beside the point. XP *sighs* I want to go back into anti-male mode and start looking at girls. Too bad I won't do girlfriends in high school. Damn me! Damn me all to hell! Ahahahahaha, here's one you haven't heard in awhile! - Saturday, February 22, 2003, 07:49 p.m. That's right, boyz and girlz....QUIGS! =D So Center Grove was cancelled. No es triste? Si. So, Lisa and I, after going to the Flea Market (which you can read about in Wistful Whimsy), we decided we wanted to go bowling. We called Quigs first and he said sure, he'd go. Then, after awhile, it fell through. (You can see a sample of why in, once again, Wistful Whimsy.) Anyway, then I called Quigs to tell him we couldn't go, and we wound up talking for hours. We talked about all kinds of stuff, like me being bi, him and Lydia, he and I thinking each other are cute, and how Puppy Katz is a "goofy looking kid." Here are some of the excerpts from the convo to Lisa about it... Dracon Genocide: Quigs is plotting to turn you bi and wants to watch Dracon Genocide: Or at least "be there" CheekyKiwi33: ?? CheekyKiwi33: um, hell no Dracon Genocide: He and I were talking about how you don't make friends with someone of the opposite sex to find out their personality until you have looked at them and think they were cute. I was disagreeing. So, for an example, I used him and I. CheekyKiwi33: HAHAHAHAHAHA Dracon Genocide: Me> "Who talked to who first?" Him> "I'm not sure. I think it was me." Me> "Actually I don't think that's true." Him> "Well, if it is, I think you're pretty cute anyway." Me> "Come to think of it...either way, it's a bad example..." CheekyKiwi33: thats good...you...friends with him...and NOT think he was cute first...AHAHAHAHAHAH CheekyKiwi33: AHAHAHAHA CheekyKiwi33: AHAHAHAHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA CheekyKiwi33: ::keels over:: Dracon Genocide: He said that HE thought HE talked to ME first Dracon Genocide: So HAH CheekyKiwi33: well, YOU said you didnt think so! CheekyKiwi33: ahahah!! Dracon Genocide: I know that isn't true Dracon Genocide: I just didn't want to tell him I'm so obsessed I can recall any of our interactions Dracon Genocide: And that I wrote down all my "Quigs stories" in my journal until we actually became friends and they happened everyday Dracon Genocide: Oh, but he got annoyed with me when I made the comment that he had a girlfriend and was not on the market. He's like "It's like a 7-11. I'm always on the market! I'm just not always open for business." Anyway, I'm soooo psyched right now about that, and I LUFF MY QUIGS! Two more reasons he's looking to break up with Lyd: she would rather watch ER than spend their designated "phone time" talking...and she lives far away. It was also funny, we were talking and I made a comment like, "What, do you want girls plotting the breakup of you and Lyd???" He jokingly said yes, and I was just like ^^;;;; I didn't do it...! lol. Anyway, I'm having trouble concentrating on Lisa's conversation, so I'd better run. Peace out, yo! Edit: I also forgot to mention how I kept calling him "pobresito" which he translates "poor little one." He then made a joke about him not being "little" and "don't knock it till you rock it." Then I said I didn't have the opprotunity to "rock it" because he's got a girlfriend. He commented with "you always have the opprotunity." Then we argued about the "rules" with relationships and stuff. Overdue posting - Thursday, February 20, 2003, 03:48 p.m. Sorry I didn't post last night like I said I would. I got caught up in some stuff. Also, Katie, if you're reading this, I'm so sorry I wasn't here Tuesday...we had a project to work on (that still isn't done and was due today), so I was over at Lisa's and then Wes's. Anyway, I'm here today for awhile, but I'm sick so don't expect long stay-on-ness. I woke up this morning and my stomache kill(s)(ed)(insert preference of tense here)...and my throat still hurts like a bitch...and then while I was standing there talking to mom about letting me stay home, I almost passed out, so I layed back down and next thing I knew it was 12:30 and my stomache still hurt and my throat still hurt. Woo. Hoo. No. Here's the part I promised out of the notebook... Word for word, because I'm not in the mood to actually THINK about this: "Bitra- *groans* Each appointment is moving me closer and closer to moving out to AZ w/ my aunt & uncle. After I explained to Lorraine that my mom has left me alone the past 15 years and is suddenly coming down on me w/ hella bunch of rules, and the only way to solve it is to back off b/c when rules are lite, I'm a good kid, but when you try to enforce stupid smarmy bitch rules (no riding in cars) and groundings (ie. trying to give my bed to my brother w/o checking first)... Mom said she refuses to do it. Also, Uncle Dave was exactly right about her just not trusting him...but even better, she doesn't trust his wife, my god mother to make sure nothing happens. She also denied the cameras, but that's another story. *sighs* Sorry. Needed to vent. All I know is July 7, I get my license...July 8, I'm in Chicago for awhile...by July 25th, let's say?, KelKel is in Scottsdale, AZ w/ her 2002 Pontiac Sunfire - hopefully to say. Court system...custody system...here we come! *sigh* Unlike her way, I'll at least do this the right way...She can kick me out and deny it. I'll go the legal way so it can't be used against me later. Oh, and even better! The onloy two people have any say on ANYTHING (mom & Lorraine - b/c we all know George's opinion matters not in our household, despite what he thinks/says) are siding together. They needed "time alone" to talk and as we're walking out, I hear "don't bend your rules." Great. The only other person who gets a choice doesn't see through my mom's fuckliness. The good news is that I think she's the only one! *sighs* Really though, it's not really that I am fucked up, really. I just come from a fucked up family!" Woo-hoo, now you all have an idea of what's going on in that front. No es triste? *grumbles something about fuckliness* Anyway, that's all that's really worth mentioning right now. Well, I feel really bad for Steve, but that's another story that we're just not going to go into right now, but I will say that she obviously has been reading Boy Meets Boy lately or SOMETHING...Ronnie and Cy just broke up, lol. WOO HOO!!!! CYxSKIDS SLASH, HERE WE COME!!!! ...err....I didn't say that. Sick boy is being sick for our project, it seems. But we dropped him off his stuff the other day, and apparently he got it done or something, because he didn't email me asking me to do it, like he said he might. *shrugs* Anyway, Lisa's been really mean to him lately, and I feel kind of bad. Granted, he and I don't always exactly...umm...get along...but I am still trying to not be a bitter bitch towards him like Mike. *grumbles something about stupid cavemen that don't realize that when you ask your best friend's ex-girlfriend out four days after they broke up, that all you are is REBOUND!!!* So, I've been assuring him that he's not a bitch, he just has bitch work. I love being a nice person once in a blue moon. Because it just never happens! =D ((Besides, I can't let her call him a bitch. It'd give a bad name to real bitches like me!)) Anyway, my head is starting to get all cloudy, so I'm not gunna stick around. Peace out, yo! Ich bin Brot! Je suis du pain! - Monday, February 17, 2003, 01:27 a.m. o.o; Yes. I am bread in many languages. Show choir competition yesterday. I woke up and went to the school. Woo hoo. So we loaded buses and Lisa and I wound up at the very front. Most literally. So instead of talking, we strategized for a better plan than what happened at Northrop on paper. Well, anyway, then we got there and my team (two) got to unload. That wasn't too bad, actually, and I'm starting to enjoy the unloading process. Other than the fact that Slayer is on the CR unloading team. (SR reference, if you don't know, it's probably better for your health. She's pissing me off like crazy, so I'm not going to honor her with her real name...) Then Lisa and I went to go get cookies. Then Elite got ready...warmed up...performed...blah blah blah....played Egyptian Ratscrew with Lisa, Tom Motter, and Caitlin Ferrell.....watched Luers....they have a cute show! Seriously! I fell in love with it! Then Lisa and I staked out the Luers room waiting for them to come back. I tackled Nick and then talked to Carrie for awhile. Then Nick, Lisa, Sam, and I went back into the auditorium and watched some groups until Lisa had to go back to the room for Class Royale's performance. After they performed, Kellie and I sat in the auditorium and just watched the rest of the shows until awards. We took third, woo-hoo. Upon the announcement that CR was in the night show, we all went back to the room. We were told to eat dinner, CR performed at 10:30 and we had to watch...etc. etc. So after I said my good-byes to Nick and Carrie, Lisa and I went to the cafeteria and got some food. We sat with Hunter, Jim, Laura Enos, and Andy. Soon it wound up just me, Lisa, and Jim, and we were playing with his hair. I LOVE HIS HAIR! He's so cute. lol. Anyway, we nicknamed him Puppy Katz (because we called him a puppy and then we remembered his last name was Katz, so he became Puppy Katz.) Then Kellie, Joel, and Brad came and sat with us. After Brad talked about getting stoned and we mediated a fight between Kellie and Joel....Lisa and I followed Tom Motter up to the rooms. There, Jim layed down because our petting him was making him tired, so we lent him a pillow and he rested. Then Lisa and I went to go do something, and when we came back, Katie's friend Ashley had hijacked my pillow and I didn't see it again for awhile. Anyway. Then Lisa, Puppy Katz, and I started hanging out with Kyle, too. When you poke him, he giggles! So, he became PBD, which was short for Pillsbury Dough Boy (since Lisa and I are dyslexic. lol.) After awhile, Puppy Katz and Kyle had to go get changed, and then Lisa had to go, so I went back to the auditorium. After the show and awards (CR took sixth, no surprise there...), we went back the rooms, grabbed our stuff, and chilled in the hallways until we were able to load the buses. I slept the whole way home, and that was the day! Today we got all nostalgic about the GWBP, Holly, Krystal, Tim, and I. GOD I miss James. =( Things just feel so different now that everything has changed...but we're trying so hard to make them go back to how they once were... I guess it's kind of what KT and I are going through. Of course, the fact that Dan is chasing at her heels is making things easier to revert back with her and I... I can't decide what I think would be best for them. I mean, her, I think she'd be best off without him because she just seems...I dunno...happier now? But he really has changed around us now that they're apart...he's never around...he's always just a shell when he is.... *sighs* I dunno. Something's just weird about those two. Well, I guess I should run. It's late. *yawns* Niiiiiiight! Don't think so, Tim. - Friday, February 14, 2003, 07:25 p.m. Well, today has not been the best, nor has it been the worst, of days. My final declaration is that Valentine's Day is a shit holiday, and we're stupid for celebrating it. Anyway, today. After getting to school late, and Lisa was NOT THERE (me = panicking about note cards that I don't think I ever did finish)... German, Mr. Jaegar talked about pornstars, which always makes for interesting discussion...sadly, I knew the name of the guy he mentioned, because Andi's talked about him before. He was this overweight fat guy that was 13 inches and liked to get girls in the back. *shrugs* Anyway, second,third, and fourth periods were note cards, note cards, note cards.....we had a helluva lot more people in the J-suites today, which sucked ass, but it's okay. I put up with it. At lunch, I asked Madison to the GLBT Prom (April 26), and she said yes. Woo hoo! Lunch was alright, because Isaiah was there, and even though he and Jenny are going out, my hot senior friend that isn't a senior anymore, managed to cheer me up. Block boring, scheduling boring, math boring... Ryan Torress gave me a ride home from school. His mom wants me to work at their Zestos when I turn 16...did I mention that? *shrugs* She does. lol, anyway. Tonight, Mom tried to organize family dinner at Casa D'Angelos, but KJ copped out, and then I whined about it not being family. George had already eaten, so instead we just did our usual stay-at-home-seperate-but-equal things. I am playing FFX again, which makes me feel stupid and boring because I don't REALLY want to play it or anything else, but I have nothing else to do...pathetic little me on Valentine's Day. *sigh* Lisa and Andi dropped by to pick their stuff up. Lisa and I were normal Kel&Lisa, but Andi&me....can we say AWKWARD?!??!?!?!?! *sighs* I can feel this pain in the side of my stomache and in my chest, and AGH! I don't like it. I NEED A FUCKING RELATIONSHIP. Aaron says Nick and Madison are supposed to break up soon, but I can't wait forever. Wtf am I smoking, look at me over Quigs. *sighs* I'm just being so finicky about people and it's so unlike me. The fact that Matt is a freshman SHOULD NOT BOTHER ME. I mean, I like him....so what the hell is the problem that I can't bring myself to get close to him and take a chance? It's like I'm sitting here being RETARDED and sitting around waiting for what I can't have. I seriously need to just grow up and stop being suck a fucking whining baby about it. In case you can't tell, I also need to drag mom back to Walgreens and make that BITCH refill my Prozac prescription. It's been over a week since I've last taken it, and it's wearing off like crazy. I can't believe how fucking obvious it is, either. I get so....so ANGRY. *sighs* Yeah, well, what can you do? I guess I'd better get back to my lifelessness....CALL ME, PUH-LEAZE, PEOPLES. 260-704-4875 - my cell - NOW! It's all about the.....DOLLAR! lol, couldn't resist... - Monday, February 10, 2003, 02:26 p.m. Oh, I remember those days. With Pony-chan! *^^* He was cute. *shrug* I haven't RPed in awhile...I kinda miss it! All those in favor of starting an rpg board, let me know, I'm wanting to...any subjects open! =D Well, sickness sucks, but I'm actually not minding staying home today, which is a first. Both Shlomo and Lisa stayed home too, so I was able to talk to them for a bit, and I played a bit of FFX, since I figure I'm probably stuck starting over since I'll bet I'll NEVER get to copy my game over from Wes's memory card! *shrugs* I got to the blitzball game and decided I wasn't in the mood for blitzball quite yet, so I saved and here I am! My eye doesn't really hurt anymore, and my ear, other than popping like crazy, isn't that bad. However, my throat is super-sore again and my nose keeps alternating which nostril it's willing to let breathe. x.X; Stupid sickness, make up your mind!! I had a lot of interesting conversations last night. Tim needed my assistance on something, so I'm hoping I made him feel a little bit better last night... I try my hardest with him because I feel like I can relate to him a lot. lol, Lisa thinks that there could be something going on between me and Tim. Riiiiiiight....except not. =P And Dan wanted to have a feel-better convo last night, too...which is kind of weird since he's kind of set himself apart from us lately. I've been wondering what happened to him... And Uncle Dave and I talked for awhile last night. That taught me a lot. I might make a DJ/LJ friends-only entry on that, but I don't feel like writing it out in the open. *nods* My computer's internet is still down, but this comp's is up. As you may have noticed, I put up the two entries from when we had no net connection. GO! READ! NOW! OR I GO ON I-LUFF-QUIGS RAMPAGE! ROAR! lol. So I've been on mom's computer, which means even more watching what I do than usual. Fun stuff. No. The good news is, I don't have as bad of ram problems now because I have my music playing on a seperate computer! lol. Seriously, though, I want my computer internet back up and running, but I dunno how to play with network and router settings. *shruglies* I might ask a knowledged person about it later. Anyway, sick girl is fairly overdue for a shower, and my leg is soaked in apple juice (seriously, I spilled my apple juice on my blanket and then didn't realize it till the leg of my jeans was soaked). So I am going to go scrub down. Imagine it! *muahs* This is the way I pray – heaven just isn’t high enough. - Sunday, February 6, 2003, 10:08 p.m. Well, the internet is STILL down, but here I am, trucking away and writing like the faithful little freak I am. ((I’m a freak, touch me. XD)) I woke up this morning feeling like SHIT. Every muscle in my body hurt, I had a killer migraine, but the good news was, I had no voice to whimper or cry out with!!! x.X; Well, I drowned my vocal cords in Powerade and vanilla ice cream at lunch, so I am able to talk now…hopefully that trend keeps up tomorrow. One day of lacking speech is bad enough! My muscles still hurt and my migraine has been coming and going all day. On top of that, I have been sleeping like a mofo. 2nd period, 3rd period, 5th period, 6th period…slept during all of em. Came home, took a nap. Slept on the way to school. Something is seriously wrong with me. No horribly new news with Quigs, just your same usual stuff. I’m loving this progress, actually, if you think about it. I mean, a couple weeks ago, I was like, “OMG HE TALKED TO ME!” and now, look at us! Oh, wait, I do have a couple stories. At practice, towards the end, Mrs. Byrne was making announcements. I was sitting up front and he and I kept making hand motions at one another and stuff. She was saying how she was being a smarmy bitch (only not in quite so many words) and he and I both look at each other and make evil bear motions. lol. Then she asked who all hadn’t sold any tickets for their performance this Saturday, and he said he hadn’t, so we mimed to each other about that, and then I told him I’d buy one from him on the condition that we hang out afterwards. He said that’d be cool, and he’d get back to me on it. I’m being forward…so sue me. Third period was HILARIOUS today. I would’ve laughed if I’d been able to. Tyler and Greg were playing Literati (ahh, brings back the memories…first semester, I miss it!) and I was trying to help Tyler, but I had no voice. So, I’d keep going to write words down and Greg would pick up whatever I was writing on and just throw it, and anything around it, all about the room. lol! And Greg used the word “tits” twice, and I said in a whisper (since it was all I could manage) that only Tyler could hear, “well, it’s the only ones Greg will ever get!” Oooh, boy. I’m horribly mean. It’s horribly true. >D I have a wicked stiff neck from the camera. So here is what I am going to go do. I am going to go drown my vocal cords with vitamin C (aka apple juice), take a nice hot shower, change back into my boxers and t-shirt, curl up into a ball, and let the dreamland and bed put me at ease. Night! AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! (I’ll save your ears if they’re really THAT important… =D) - Sunday, February 5, 2003, 9:40 p.m. Okay. Today. You’ve read about the hat incident, so we shall move on to the next part. We had our first group meeting today. All in all, it wound up just me, Tricia, and Aaron. Betsy got sick during the school day, Shannon goes home after fourth, and no one else knows about anyone else. (Though we’re trying to get Madison in, too.) It wasn’t too bad, and it really was a learning experience. We talked a lot about peer and parent responses. General consensus: AARON! YOUR PARENTS WANT TO KNOW! TELL THEM BEFORE THEY THINK THAT THEY’RE IMAGINING THINGS AND THAT YOU REALLY ARE STRAIGHT! =D (Hetero alert, hetero alert! XD) It’ll hopefully be more fun when we get more people, but I enjoyed myself. Elite was cancelled today, so Lisa and I went back to her place and “worked on note cards.” Basically, we did do some work, but we also sat around and I played Solitaire while her mom came in to play Gestapo every once in awhile, we would pull up some stuff to look like we were working. We did actually get some cards done, but we spent most of our worktime trying to find people who could bring us their cards. lol. We’re vicious. Lisa dropped me off at the school for Variety Show, and after maneuvering around the crowds, I got in and instantly Brian spotted me and called me over to come sit with him. I was like, ‘YaY!’ lol. So, the two of us sat DEAD center, and he was all cutesy and making jokes about putting his arm around me and stuff, and it was so amusing. I was like =DDDD!!!! Anyway, so then, the show was GREAT. I got 36+ pictures (I love Will, he gave me a 36 exposure roll….I had been FREAKING out…lol.) So, now, I get to get my pics developed and hope Kuhn likes em (cuz I reeeally don’t want to go to Will for my signing-off; he’s a fascist Nazi bitch. lol.) Well, anyway, while we were sitting there, Brian asks me if I have a ride home. I tell him no, but I could call my mom to have her come pick me up. He insisted that he drive me home (he had his truck, and I think he wanted to repay me for taking him home) and so I said sure, but warned him I lived out in BFE. He was okay with that, and we drove. The entire drive home, he had me rub his head, and we swapped all kinds of interesting stories about trouble we’ve (okay, he’s gotten into…let’s not go into my trouble, I was thinking…) been in…our pets…siblings…driving habits…all kinds of fun stuff. Oh, it was so cool. So we got to my house and he was saying that he would prolly need directions home, and I told him I was kidnapping him. He asked if he could be my love slave!!!! *screams, squeals, and lets out little girly noises all at once* Then, then, THEN he INSISTED on opening my door for me and walking me to my door! I’m like, “awwwwww!!!!” Then after we kind of stood there and said our unwilling departure, then he hugged me like six or seven times and told me he was glad that we were friends. OMG OMG OMG OMFG, THAT WAS SOOOO AWESOME! I wanna do it again. lol. OMGOMGOMGOMG *hyperventilates* - Tuesday, February 4, 2003, 06:58 p.m. QUIGS. BRIAN QUIGLEY. *continues hyperventilating* Yeah, so, I was alone in CR's practice today cuz the backup band wasn't there. But that's cool, I got to sit in front and watch everyone. At one point, everyone but the sopranos got to sit in front, so Brian made a couple people move to come sit next to me so I could rub his head. Then, his group was the last to stand up, so he stayed there the whole time and told me about how he really hopes that we can sit together on the bus because he wants me to rub his head (even if his hair is grown out) on the Center Grove trip and he wants to be able to sleep and Tom will just sit there and play his guitar the whole time. (And of course the poor boy would be stuck next to Tom.) Their practice got out early (4:15, so 45 minutes early to be exact), so after hitting Brian and Mike and Becky all three up for rides home to BFE, I learned that Brian didn't have a ride home, either. So, I made him the bargain that if he stayed till five and kept me company, I would give him a ride home. Sooo, the two of us sat by the door and he layed down while I stroked his head for him. I kind of played therapist for him. He talked about his parents and about problems between he and Lydia... He seems kind of interested in me, which makes me smile. It was funny, because he wants me to dye my hair red. (Preferrably natural red, but he's curious to see me with fire-engine red hair, too.) Anyway, he was at first saying that if I turned him on too much with red hair, I couldn't rub his head anymore! LOL! Then later, after we talked about Lyd and how she's being really weird with their relationship and stuff.... He was saying that she always goes and hangs out with her guy friends, and how he never hangs out with his female friends. I said there was really nothing to worry about, he's a good guy. He laughed and said his mind still went on that track - he was still a guy. And then he was talking about how red hair really turns him on again and how after I dye my hair, we should hang out, and then he wiggled my eyebrows at me. I laughed. Then we took him home. =D My GOD, I'm not inanely obsessing like I thought I was because now it's like actually more real than it was!!!! *squeaks and jitters* MY GOD HE IS SO AWESOME!!! =D!! Screw Stash and Matt, I WANT QUIGS!!!! lol. *flashes a big smile* They're dropping like flies! - Tuesday, February 4, 2003, 09:19 a.m. lol, sorry, I said that during Trig last period so I felt the need to say it again. It was an amusing quote from how both Paul and Shannon are sick now. It's either JT or Ashley or ME!!!! (AHHHHH!!!!) next. lol. I'm bringing in a notebook tomorrow so we can pass notes during class since JT can't type worth shit. He and I amused each other today, though. He is still hitting me up to be allowed to watch if I do anything with Madison (or any other girl.) lol, ah, men. I shall never understand them...nor other females! I think I shall go asexual for the rest of high school. (Like that could EVER happen. I'm pathetically obsessive over just Quigs, and he's a silly little prep with a shaved head and a girlfriend!!!!) *shrugs* "Old" Kevin rocks my world!!!! lol, okay, so Katie and I were "arguing" about child support for our "son" and he proceeded to tell her that we couldn't have a son together - there was no Y chromosome. Well, then I got on MSN to argue with him and tell him we have son from when she raped me...lol. Anyway, so now he and I talk on AIM all the time and I absolutely love his personality! He is a total sweethart. His birthday is in five days (February 9, I shall remember!) and he is going to drive down to see me when he gets his license!!!!! He's also willing to bring Adam and Katie and Chua and Brandon, etc. he says, which is absolutely AWESOME. I can't believe how cool he is! I luff him to bits. Shlomo is hitting on me... >.<; Last night he told me I didn't have to be modest about my ass because I have a nice one. AGH! But, the good news on that front (teenaged lurve), is that Lisa talked to Matt and he said that he "likes flirting with me a lot" and according to Lisa, that's Mattspeak for that he may like me. I am trying to decide whether I want to call Matt or Stash this weekend to go to the movies... Eenie, meanie, miney mo.... lol. Hm. It's funny though because each one has a completely different personality! Matt is like this horn dog with this really naive and childish personality, wheras Stash is calm and quiet who just kind of follows whatever you have him do. But either way, they're both super-cute personality wise. Matt's a bit cuter in looks, but I know Stash a little bit better. *shrugs* I have time to decide. Oh, but Ashley gave me a super-good idea for me and Lisa. Similar to JT, Paul, and I, Lisa and I should use a notebook to give notes to each other. For different reasons than me and JT and Paul, tho. lol. *shrugs* I'm gunna suggest it to her at lunch today. (I sit next to Stash everyday at lunch =D =D =D) And also, I burned a CD last night for her and I, another driving tunes CD. I'm listening to it right now, and surprisingly no one is bitching about it yet! lol. Usually people get pissy when I put CDs in, but I suppose Chris being gone makes things much nicer. =D Don't mind me. Well, I suppose I should go. I've been working on Trailek's character description for the past two days and am STILL not done, so I guess I should go get that done soon. ~.~; Before I add any more SR characters. lol. Seriously, though, I have so many characters, even if a bunch of them are only spinoff chars. But now that I've literally added Raden and Tyrtul into the story, it's just making this such a looooong project. Oh, and adding Karney, too. >.<; This is going to be a fucking project that will last past high school, I swear. I just need to get ambitious, lock myself in my room for a weekend or so and just write. *thinks* What about spring break......? AHHH! And I still haven't gone! lol! *chases self away* RUN, DAMMIT, KELLY, BEFORE YOU WRITE MORE!!!!!! ... ... ......I'M GOING, I SWEAR!!!!!!!!!! lol. Peace out, yo! Coffee, anyone? - Sunday, February 2, 2003, 11:27 p.m. Alright, Firefly with Shlomo last night. (Yes, I've waited this long to write about it, it's taken me that long to calm down and just write subjectively.) Well, he picked me up about 7:40ish and we took off towards Firefly. The way up we talked about a variety of things and he played for me the theme song to Metal Gear Solid 2. When we got there, I made fun him for locking his doors three times and then we went inside. He ordered a coffee and I felt really awkward not ordering anything, so I got a Jones Green Apple Soda (yumness). He paid. It was awkward. Anyway, then we sat off to the side and talked about all kinds of things for the longest time. I shocked the hell out of him by telling him my hair wasn't naturally blonde. lol. A friend of his came up while we were talking and she was introing us to her new future boyfriend. It was amusing, she's like "He isn't asking me out, he's being a dork!" "Yeah, calling me a dork, THAT makes me want to ask." Then she asked him if he was on a date and he looked over at me, said he didn't quite know if it was and looked back up at her. She then proceeded to beat him for going on a date with someone other than her, lol. After awhile, we decided to go get some food because I was starving. So we drove back to this side of town and got Taco Bell. He didn't wind up eating, but he still paid. o.O; Anyway, then on our way home, he asked if it would be alright if he chilled at my place since he didn't have to be home till 1. So we sat around and talked until about 12:30 and then he left. This morning, we talked a bit, and he asked me to take a picture of myself and send it to him, but I resisted because I looked like crap and didn't feel like hauling out the camera, and mom was on the other comp so I couldn't have her move so I could take the picture. *shrugs* Oh well... I've been kind of bothered by all that all day. See, I just want to be friends with Shlomo. And unlike with Madison, I really mean it this time. (lol, when I said that to Lisa, she responded with, "You said the same thing about Madison." That's why I feel the need to say that.) But I don't want to say anything to him if I'm just picking up on things that aren't really there. At the same time, I don't want to lead him on. *sigh* I dunno. And the people I do like, I'm pretty sure like me back...but they glare daggers at one another every two seconds because I alternate on which one I hang on. =D Then there's Madison...BOXBOXBOXBOX WHY THE FUCK DID SHE CHOOSE A FUCKING BOX OVER ME?! ...grrr. And even moreso, where does she get off thinking that this means I'll still do stuff with her even though she has a boyfriend?! *sighs* I guess she doesn't think of bisexuality like I do. To her, it's a way to expand your horizons. To me, it's not dividing the world male/male/female/male/female. It's thinking person/person/person/micro-organism. (Yes, the last one is of course, Welch. lol.) *sighs* It's girls like her that give us good bisexuals a bad name... Guys are complicated, almost as much as girls! - Friday, January 31, 2003, 11:30 p.m. List of people that like me or seem to possibly like me: Shlomo Goltz. Madison VanderZande (or however it's spelled.) Matt Kosowski. Stash (Stephen Armstrong.) Now. Today....and all the stories. OH! And why I'm grounded but don't give a shit. Right, we'll start with the grounding. Mom announced last night that she's giving my bed to KJ to take to the frat house. BULLLLLLSHIT! Yeah, so I told her she couldn't, she got pissy and grounded me. I said I didn't care because I wasn't getting grounded for her giving my bed away when I was just getting ready to move in there because the couch was beginning to hurt my back and restrict my movement!!!! Grr. I haven't checked since I got home, but I'll bet that stupid fucktard already picked it up and I'll bet Mommy Dearest let him have it. Then if she wants to keep me grounded, that is DEFINITELY too bad. She gave the bed away, I'm saying the big FUCK YOU! Madison was acting all weird around me today during school...like she must have heard that I completely went off on Nick - twice - about asking her out before I had the chance to. So, like, she was kind of "I'm-scared-to-come-near-you" during school. At the game, though, she was ALL over me, arms around me, grabbing my ass, petting my hair...etc. etc. etc. She called me today and asked if she could spend the night tomorrow night.... I can't help but keep thinking in the back of my mind how she's going out with Nick Kindel and she has a boyfriend and I don't want to be one to help her cheat - especially with someone that I really don't mind, I'm just pissy that he got to her before I did... *sighs* And he's gross. But that's another story. Well, the game was fun stuff. Liiiike, I snuck up into the band section and sat with Lisa and Brad and Evan and Stash. Madison wanted me to sit with her, but I decided to stay down where I was, so she came to me. Anyway, after Lisa took up the whole bench with the guys and I was crunched up, I sat down on the bitch-bench (floorlike thingy) and used Stash as a backing. Then I kinda licked him a lot and did my leap of faith with him and then Brad and Evan... And then I let go of him to go hang on Sc00t cuz Scottness is teh sexy w00t. lol. Anyway, Stash got kinda jealous and drifted towards Lisa. Then we went back into the game and I sat between Madison and Stash the whole time and was big pimpin, with my arms around each one's shoulder and switching who I was resting my head towards. At the dance, I was SUPER hyper and bouncing around and spinning and just being totally stupid, as usual. It was fun. I kept getting really dizzy and both Matt and Stash would drift towards me and try to keep me from falling down. They both got REALLY jealous when I'd put my arm around the other one or have the other one carry me...lol. It was a funny site to see the two freshman glare bolts at one another. Anyway, so then it got really lame really fast because they were actually inforcing the new regulations, so we ducked out around 10 and drove around for awhile. Brad put his hand on my shoulder a bit to try and grab my boobs (as usual....it's a habit he's picked up from Evan) and then Stash chased him away and I wound up holding his hands up on my shoulders the whole time. (Not because I don't trust Stash, but because it made dancing to the old-school pop music more fun.) Oh, and Evan stole candy canes for Lisa and I out of a snowman. Woop woop! Umm, all in all, it's been a very eventful day and I am ready to just fall over and sleep! Too bad I probably don't have a bed....lol. Anywho, I suppose I should run. ttyl! Luv & Peace, ~Skye~ SHE CHOSE A BOX OVER ME?!?!?!? - Thursday, January 30, 2003, 08:52 p.m. Right. So. I came into school today and Madison was COMPLETELY avoiding me. I was kind of like, "Uhh..." So I beat up on Evan and Brad and played patty-cake with Lisa. Then after Madison ran off, I cornered Theory and asked if he knew why she was avoiding me. He told her she probably just didn't want to tell me that she was going out with Nick. Nick Kindel. BOX NICK. AHHHHHH!!!! SHE CHOSE A BOX OVER ME! Anyway, apparently she decided she was hoping that I would ask her out, after I was told it would be the other way around (hence why I sat on my ass) and now she's going out with someone that is more ewwie than I ever thought Tim was! I couldn't kiss her without thinking, "AHHH! SHE KISSED KINDEL!!!" Ewwwww..... *cries* Yes, so my hopes and dreams of Madison are kind of dashed, as well as my opinion of myself if she likes both me and Box Nick. x.X; So. Moving on and back to guys. I'll put this in verbatim how I put it to Brandon. Shlomo and I have been talking a lot during third period and now online, and liiiike today I was talking about how I was a cheerleader and an ex-Catholic school girl and he was like "well everyone knows that those outfits are the biggest turn-ons to guys!" And today, we had a 2-hour delay, so we ate lunch with 3rd period, and he sat around and talked to me and went to lunch with me (since Journalism gets to pick their lunch) and then he ate with me and my friends even though he didn't really know any of them. And tonight, he called me and asked me if I wanted to go to a local coffee shop with him Saturday night to see some local bands. I said sure, cuz it sounds like fun and I'm pissy about the whole Madison ordeal (since I was supposed to spend the night at her house but I'll deal with that rant in my journal), so I was looking for something else to do anyway. But I can't help but ask myself - do you think he's asking out of friendship or is he looking for something more???? Now, moving on. Brian! Quigs! Did I mention he shaved his head? He shaved his head! ...thank you, Kelly. lol, anyway, Lisa and I rub it like crazy... XD! He asked me to sit with him on the next bus ride and just sit there and rub his head!!!!! =D =D =D!!! That excites me. GAWD I luff him. AND FOR ONCE I HAVE A ONE-UP OVER LISA BECAUSE EVERY FUCKING GUY HANGS ON HER AND I NEVER HAVE A CHANCE. *ahem.* Anyway, she has her belly button piereced. Confused? Well, he saw it and he gets all, "Lyd got hers pierced....I don't like it..." Lisa: "Why not?" Brian: "I just don't...I dunno. I don't have mine pierced, look!" He's so kyute. =) I just want to go jump on him right now. lol. Anyway, we hung out with him and Jim and Brett and Lisa's friend Chris a lot at CR practice during breaks and stuff. It was awesome! I'm beginning to feel more at home during the CR practices - moreso even than at Elite practices. Who woulda figured? Anyway, I'm gunna bolt. Peace out, yo! They're coming to take me away, haha-hoho-hehe... - Wednesday, January 29, 2003, 08:17 a.m. According to Aaron, Madison's debating on whether or not to ask me out...she was thinking of doing it last night, but he thinks she chickened out. I guess that's just as well, because I definitely need time to think. I kinda did something last night that I probably shouldn't have done, but hopefully it stays under wraps and no one finds out what it was. (I've told two people, but they're not the people you might expect... *hugs her Brandywine* (You have better have done it, or I will KICK your ASS.)) Anyway, so now I'm kinda iffy on what I want to do or where I want to go with guys/girls. I also STILL haven't hung out with Nick, and that'll be kind of awkward if suddenly I have a girlfriend when we hang out instead of me having a boyfriend or being single. AGH. Complications. I talked to Katie last night. I've missed talking to her. We talked about how she doesn't really like getting online anymore because she feels kind of like I've moved on and forgotten her... I haven't, but I suppose I can see where she's coming from. I'm hardly ever online anymore, and when I am, I'm usually so wrapped up in a million convos with people irl. I feel so bad, because I want to be able to make time for my internet friends too, because they have always been there for me and have been nothing but awesome. I talk to Belle and Steve everyday, but otherwise, it's as if I'm hardly talking to anyone but people from HHS or just somewhere here in FW... *sighs* I need to make sure I make more time to talk to my net friends. I have a fucking sinus cold and it's hurting like hell! My eyes get all blurry and the pressure in my nasal cavities is likE SHITPISSFUCKCUNT#$@#(&$#)(% AHHHHHHHH!! IT huuurts. =( I've been blowing my nose like crazy and I still can't win... At least the sore throat is gone, but my voice is all scratchy and I lost about an octave off of my high range. >.<; Being a low alto blows. lol. Anyway, I just thought I would have a little rant like crazy about how I hate winter and it makes me feel like shiiiit! *throws things at snow and cold weather and viruses! GRR!* Anyway, I have to finish up my German and study for my quiz before I leave for school since I don't have my time before first to do it now... Ta-ta for now! A long spiel about guys (mostly Nick) translated from a convo w/ Steve - Monday, January 27, 2003, 04:43 p.m. Evan likes Lisa. As I once said, I like three people - one has a boyfriend, one I don't have a chance with, and one not only do I not have a chance with, but he also has a girlfriend. It happens. *sighs* You grow used to it. So then, I was attempting to start thinking of Nick like that since he likes her and all....but all I could think was Why does the one I grew up with have to be the only one who likes me? See, it's so hard to see him like that. I mean... Yeah, I held hands with him and rested my head on his shoulder and stuff...but we grew up together! He's almost like a brothe...except...not. It'd be like if BJ liked me. Like, Nick and I never talked during elementary school... As kids, I'd sneak into his room during nap time, and we'd sit up on his bunkbed and talk. When his mom came upstairs to check on us, he'd act like he was asleep and I'd hide in the closet. We couldn't understand how she knew that we were doing it. It never occurred to us that she checked my room too! But then we never talked during elementary, and during middle school-years (even tho at SJBS it was all the way up to 8th), he moved to Indy with his aunt and uncle cuz he hated the SJBS kids. But he missed it, so he came back for high school. We talked last year and thought about casually dating, but then suddenly we just stopped talking... And then I ran into him at show choir, and I was flirting with him like I do every guy, using him as a pillow and holding his hand and stuff, and now he tells me he likes me and thinks I'm really cute and stuff... And I mean, that's cool and all... But I can't help but keep thinking of sneaking into his room during naptime when I was little. I dunno...maybe if I see him again and talk to him in person, things will be different, but all I ever talk to him is when he calls me or when he gets online. I mean, I want to hang out with him and stuff...that's not a problem... I just don't know what I should see him as. Then there's how I lied to Evan because I'm a bitch. NuAgeVntageHippy: *yawns and laughs* I stopped liking you more than a friend a couple days back NuAgeVntageHippy: You have nuthin to worry about PuNkSk8Ta420: k NuAgeVntageHippy: Though don't think this means I'll stop licking you because dude, I'm so beating your ass right now I feel like a bitch for lying to him, but I might as well start to get over him now. O-bla-di, o-bla-da, life goes on...right Dunc-o? (Not that he reads this anymore or even cares about me and the rest of our group.) Anyway...I just thought I'd keep you posted on how things are STILL All Quiet on the Western Front....... Cabaret = A restaurant or nightclub providing short programs of live entertainment - Saturday, January 25, 2003, 10:43 p.m. Saturday. Woo hoo. Well, this morning, I went to the legislature luncheon-meeting downtown in the Chamber of Commerce building. After meeting some of the head guys and talking to two people from the other two programs that were being represented there today (AIM, a program for children that commit worse crimes - think Dan...and SOCAP, a program especially for truants), the food was served. As soon as we were done eating, the meeting started. First the head dude talked about the three programs, then us kids got up and spoke about them. All in all, it was fairly successful. Hopefully we'll get more funding so Teen Court can pick back up. Anyway, then Dawn gave me something....I WAS TEEN COURT VOLUNTEER OF THE YEAR FOR 2002 IN FORT WAYNE. !!!!!! WOOOOOOP! I'm mega-excited and Mom's major proud of me. I get a plaque and everything. =D Rock on. Cabaret Night wasn't bad. I talked to Jim for awhile, and he's going to come in early Monday so I can do his hair for him. Then I talked to Dick for awhile, and at about quarter after, Justin came in and told me that I should probably get ready, since Emily had just informed him that she had to be dressed in fifteen minutes. I ran into the choir room and changed. Then we just kinda chilled until we went to go watch Class Act. I was amazed. Mystified. I WISH THAT I'D HAD THAT KIND OF OPPROTUNITY AT THAT AGE! It was just incredible. Seriously, if I could've been in a show choir in middle school, I would've bit like a fish at the chance. *shrugs* Anyway, our performance was not our best, but I would say it went well. I feel fairly good about it. Then I watched Class Royale and Kai-kai came over and kept me company. Then he and I went on the quest to find Tara, and then right after I delievered him, Ashley told me she had thought he was my boyfriend. I WANTED TO CRY. Anyway. Trauma. Then I talked to Tonya Torress for awhile, and she wants me to work at her Zestos out in Columbia City when I get my lisence. I told her I'd think about it, though I'm still thinking about applying at McCord's to work with Roro. Anyway, then Lisa and I ran out before Purdue came on. We were going to go bowling, but we spent a goddamned half hour online trying to find someone to go with us. Well, then we went upstairs and changed and did our makeup and called people on speaker phone. No one could go. Frustrated, we checked online one last time for people, then climbed into the car and headed over to Brad Kleinhans's house. His street was full and his driveway was too, so we turned around in the cul-de-sac and went over to Evan's. There, we stood around and talked for awhile, until the dog pissed on the floor and his parents came home. We had to go then, so Lisa brought me home and it was just fun. Tomorrow, Lisa is thinking about dragging me to the Youth Group Superbowl party, but if I find somewhere else to go and/or someone else to chill with...I may not go with her. *shrugs* Just the whole "youth group" part of it disturbs me, and I don't really want this going to mass thing to become weekly. That, and I still haven't seen Nick since the show choir thing. *shrug* I dunno what he'll be up to though. Since he is NEVER home when I call!!! That or Kaitlin is just a stupid bitch, but that wouldn't surprise me either. I'm so nice to Kaitlin =D (no.) I am still kind of bitter of how she was during cheerleading, and from how Nick talks, she hasn't changed. lol, it was funny. He was disconected last night... Me: "Computer problems?" Nick: "No. Kaitlin problems." Me: "I'd think those are neverending." Nick: "Oh they are. lol, so apparently she is the saaaaame girl. Anyway, I'm getting kind of tired since I got up early this morning, and I'd like to drag someone (anyone? ANYONE?! LET ME KNOW!!!) to Glenbrook tomorrow to go hoodie shopping. *shrugs* Night, ya'll! Life is a hurricane, here in Duckberg....lol - Friday, January 24, 2003, 09:21 a.m. Oh, I burned a funness CD last night. It has all kinds of amusing-as-shit songs on it, like the Ducktales theme, the Chip and Dale theme, Veggie Tales songs, and more. It's Lisa and I's new "Driving Tunes" CD. Woop. The two of us sat there in amusement this morning singing all the songs to the best of our memory. Sometimes...some crimes...go slipping through the cracks, but these two gumshoes....are picking up the slack! There's no case to big, no case too small! If you need help, just call...Ch-ch-ch,chip and dale....Rescue RANGERS! lol. It's awesome. OH! Last night was soooo funny. We were going out to Lisa's car and it was frrrrreezing! So she stopped Kameron Cox and asked him if we could hitch a ride in his trunk. So we jumped in except for Evan, who grabbed the tow ball and car-skiied the whole way out to the car until he let go and tumbled into the snow. And then, Brad rolled out and rolled into the pavement too...it was SOOO funny! Lisa wrote about it in new deadjournal, and she goes into more detail with it and our game of padiddle. *nods* Nick Shifley likes me. o.O; Yes, I actually know this for a fact. We were talking, and I'm like "We should hang out sometime!" "Definitely. Do you have a boyfriend?" "Nope." "YES!!!!!" "No one usually reacts that happily...." "Well I really like you and you're REALLY cute." I actually have the convo saved at home, but I'm too lazy to actually write when I'm there. Similar to how I'm too lazy to actually do my homework...dammit, I have Alg2 homework to do and I think that Mrs. McGlennen and Mrs. Mitchell are actually going to collect. We have a student teacher in our Alg 2 class. Mrgh. Anyway. And Paul keeps hitting me up for head, and I don't know how to interpret him. Liiike, one minute he sounds totally serious and the next minute, he sounds completely joking around. Obviously, I'm not going to give it to him, but it's just irritating. It's like wtf?! One, whatever happened to the "I don't even give that privlege to Paul, fwb" and the whole thing about him being glad that I don't give head, last February? Thinking it was a good thing? BAH. I want to reach out and smack him. And people keep asking me if Paul and I are going out. NO WE ARE NOT GOING OUT!!!! HE IS MY FUCKING BEST FRIEND! Jesus Christ. It's just irritating. Meh. Why don't they ask if he and Lisa are going out - she's the same way with him... Peh. Quote of the day: "Hi, I have a penis!" lol, anyway. Mr. Patterson took me out of the classroom to question why I was in Trig and Alg 2 at the same time and says he is going to check and make sure it is okay EVEN THOUGH I ALREADY WENT THROUGH A WHOLE SEMESTER OF BOTH FUCKING CLASSES!!!!! Roar. What's he planning on doing, forcing me to drop for a study hall? I hate stupid teachers. Though I never thought I would say this, I miss Mr. Weaver. lol. He thought I was his prodigy child, the girl that "always got A+'s." Now I'm, well, not. Bleh. JUST BECAUSE I HAVE PINK HAIR, WEAR EITHER LEATHER OR A HOODIE EVERYDAY, AND OWN A CAMOFLAUGE CELL PHONE DOES NOT MEAN I'M STUPID OR DON'T CARE ABOUT MY GRADES! I'M A FUCKING SOPHOMORE IN ALPHA CLASSES, I GOT A+'s IN ALG 2 LAST SEMESTER, I'M IN SHOW CHOIR, ON YEARBOOK STAFF, AND IN DRAMA! Grrrr....I hate teachers that stereotype kids. Or just people that stereotype other people in general. Grr. I am very irritated. I need a nap. Block, be prepared. lol. Or maybe I'll sleep at Dad's tonight? Nahhh... =D lol. I want to give Madison a call to see if she wants to do something this weekend...it was kind of weird today, she came over and sat with us, and her boyfriend was with her. I didn't really know how to act. After we kissed last weekend, we both are acting really weird around each other, unsure what to do. She hugged me at lunch yesterday... I'm just so confused about what I want with her. One minute "I COULD HAVE MY FIRST GIRLFRIEND!" and the next, "I like boys!" Roar. I have a fucked up thought process. I guess I'll just leave things up to her. Latest project: Get Tim to go to snowcoming. I am going with Evan, I know, but if I know Evan and myself, neither of us are going to want to dance with both of us the whole time. So I want Tim to go, because I want to be able to dance with him, too. I'm not sure why, yet, I just know that I do. He asked me if I ever asked Evan, which he has known I had for awhile now, and then when I reminded him I had, I told him he should still come so I could teach him how to grind, even though I'm not that great at it. lol. He says it'd be cool, but he's not sure if he wants to go yet. Well, I suppose I am going to go now so I can nap or something before the period is up. Good flight, good night, and you're full of sheit. =D Quick! What's the 'four-eleven'? XD - Wednesday, January 22, 2003, 08:22 p.m. Alright. Well, Andi and I are back to just being friends, and that's a long story that takes too long to tell. It involves confusion, a bitchfest, a lot of explaining, and finally a conclusion. I'm okay with it, and in fact, I feel a little more comfortable with myself - even if I am back to whoring around =D Today was alright. German was niiiiice - no Wes, no Tim...lol, it was cool. Anyway, then came Trig. OMG, I HATE MISTER PATTERSON. Right, so Weaver was a slowass and we didn't get as far as Patterson's class did. I tried to tell him that, and what does he do? Laugh at me and tell me that I covered it in Algebra II. GRR! Anyway, so I spent the rest of the period flirting with Paul and JT. It was fun. In fact, I was amused, before third period, I told Paul to give me his gum so he wouldn't have to throw it away. He opens his mouth, sticks his tounge out, and I take it right off! Anyway. Third period was okay, I guess...Tyler, Shlomo, Greg, and Will are the only ones in my class. Shlomo's really nice and I'm going to enjoy having him in my class. Keena's being nice to me. o.O; Greg and Will are their usual selves. Lunch was interesting...we sat in the hall. It was me, Lisa, Paul, Matt Kosowski, Jessica, Mike, Jenny, Sadie, and a whole bunch of their friends. Lisa and I were laying on Paul...it was amusing. Seventh period, I don't really like my class, but Mickey's still in it, so that's all good. Wings tonight was interesting, too. See, Lisa and I went and picked up Dan Johnson, and when we showed up, the table was fuller than full. So, while we were standing there, Brad ran over to hug us. So we went and sat with him and Stash. So, the five of us shared a table, and it was interesting...Brad kept...reaching for places. x.X; Then we rode around town without aim for awhile, playing Padiddle. My word, was it interesting. In the end, it wound up Lisa and I both in our bras and pants...Brad and Stash both with no shirts or shoes...and Dan with only one of his three shirts. x.X; Lucky bastard. lol. It was fun stuff. Brad kept hitting on me and trying to grab more and even asked me to make out with him. I'm like o.O;;;;; I LIKE EVAN, NOT YOU, YOU SILLY LITTLE BOY! Anyway. It was kind of weird. So now I am home and debating to see if I should wait and see if anyone gets online or go play FF7. =D Until I decide, I suppose I should finish checking online stuffZ. Luv & Peace! ~kk~ Everything so comfortable, yet so tense. - Tuesday, January 21, 2003, 11:25 a.m. Agnostic. Bisexual. Show choir boy. Punky-but-not-quite kid. Laughs at the concept of "emo." Plays guitar. Does html. Does midi files. FIVE FOOT ELEVEN (since we all know I call that the perfect height. "Todd's 5'11". So is Brandon." lol.) Drives an orange truck. Likes punk, rock, alternative, classic rock, and bits and pieces of R&B and rap. So far, he sounds perfect for me, right? I couldn't ask for a better boyfriend. So why is there so much turmoil now that Andi and I are going out? Three-day story - Sunday, January 19, 2003, 03:29 p.m. Day one. Friday, January 17th, 2003. The mission, show choir practice. After driving with Lisa, Brad, Paul, Evan, and others, Lisa dropped me off back at the school for show choir. The five hour long practice was completely dress rehearsal and went fairly well. We managed to clean up the bitchiest parts. We also got to practice on the risers in the cafeteria, as well as watch Class Royale do theirs on the risers in the cafeteria. Fun stuff. I used Brian as a pony to the choir room, my feet hurt so bad ~.~; lol, I luff Quigs. Friday night. Mission, meet Landan. I went straight to Theory's after practice and borrowed his shower and his mommy's makeup. Yayness for Kellness. Theeeen, we called Madison and she weaseled her way out of band and into our plans. Around 7, we left for the hotel. We waited in the lobby for about an hour, and finally Landan came down. He was exactly what I expected. Anyway, so we went up to his room. I was trying to convince him and Theory to let me take their picture, and they refused. Well, I wound up kissing Madison during this part, but then I finally got their picture. Then my mom showed up and she took the two of them home. She bitched that we went to the hotel, but was okay about it. Final punishment: I can't go out on nights before competitions. Whatever. Saturday, January 18, 2003. Mission: Show Choir Competition at Northrop. I got up, went to school, and we drove up to Northrop on the busses. We went straight to our homeroom, and there I got dressed, did my makeup, hair, etc. When we were all ready, we went to the solo room and listened to Brett. He sang this song, I'm a Modern Major General...omg, it was KYUTE! Then Elite filed out to the warm-up room. After that, we took stage. I am kind of proud of how we did. I know I, personally, did quite well. Anyway. At the competition, Lisa and I met this REALLY hot guy (think DALLAS-type hot, only in a more punk form!!! *SQUEAL!*) named Andi and some of his friends. Originally, Lisa liked Andi and I was just hanging around, but after he dropped me on my head, the tables turned and he and I became more of a thing while Lisa kept his friends company. I think his buddy Mike likes her. She was kind of pissy that I was going after Andi too, since she met him first, but we talked about it and she's okay with it. Sides, she won't date outside the school anyway. "I like Mike's personality, though I find Andi more attractive." I disagree...I love Andi's personality. He's an agnostic, bisexual, manic depressive male that wants to be a porn-filmer when he grows up. COME ON!!! How can I pass that up?! Anyway, enough about Andi. Sunday, January 19, 2003. Mission: pink. My hair is now pink, which amuses me. We went through four cans of Manic Panic hairdye, and it's STILL kind of blondish. Bleh. Oh well, it's cute, and I like it. Pink is pink. That and now we know what we're doing for all the other colors I'm going to go. Yes yes. I can't believe how lucky I am to have a friend like Lisa. We have too much in common. IT WAS CREEPY THE OTHER DAY!!!! Okay, we went to Wendy's during the half day and we both ordered a Double Cheeseburger Meal and Chicken Nuggets. We got our burgers, both of us, no pickle no onion. We both go to eat it and "Eww, mustard." HOW CREEPY IS THAT!!! LOL. Anyway. Paul and Brit broke up. Lisa and Tim broke up awhile ago, if I haven't mentioned that. I probably did, cuz I think I mentioned going to the play with him, too. Brad sold me to Paul, but he DEFINITELY wants me back...Evan and Tim won't sell. Uhh, Steve rocks face...ummm...*thinks* OH! And Theory needs to stop being so paranoid! That's all, folks! Hey-lo from Tay-oh's - Friday, January 17, 2003, 06:26 p.m. Hey hey, I'm writing from Theory's. We're sitting around waiting to go see Landywine. Madison is coming with us! <excited. =D So, anyway, writing. Yesterday was pretty cool. After my appointment with Lorraine, I called Paul to see if he wanted to go to the play with me. Well, he didn't, so when I got home, I asked Tim to go. He said sure, but he would need a ride. Sooo, I got him a ride and we went to the school for the play. It was hilarious. The rest of the time, he and I just hung out. Tim's cool and I feel kinda bad for him with how Lisa broke up with him. *shrugs* Poor guy, he really cared about her. He's trying to be a hardass about it, "Oh, I don't care," etc...yeah right. I know for a fact that he's bullshitting me, though. Today, Evan "helped" me change again today, and this time Paul and Brad Kleinhans helped too. ((LOL, this was when Brad decided he had made a mistake by selling me to Paul!!!!)) Anyway, I won't go into details about that shizzo, since most of you don't want to know. Oh, but it was cute, Lisa's friend Stash was riding shotty and Evan kept trying to get him to look back at me while I was changing and he was like "NO!!!!" lol, poor guy. Anyway, that was fun stuff and I'm sure that those three will want rides home on show choir days more often. "Who's getting shotty?" "Not me!" "No!" "Don't look at me!" lol. Poor Lisa. =D Show choir was brutal. Five hours of singing and dancing. My GOD I am tired and sore. TWO QUIGS STORIES! One, he carried me from the cafeteria to the choir room!!!!!!! Two, he knows my name!!!!!!!!!!! "Do you even know my name?" "Kelly." "How'd you know?!" "You helped us with that one thing..." YAHOO! I lurve Brian. =DDD Anyway, back to the practice. We wore our wigs today and they suck. =/ Oh well, it's getting me pink hair. Speaking of which, that's getting put off til tomorrow. Lisa's mom said she couldn't have anyone over today, so Lisa and I just drove around all afternoon before practice. Gotta run. Bai! Godfucking fucking fuck - Thursday, January 16, 2003, 07:31 a.m. Right. Okay. Yeah. Writing from school. A lot to say. Yay, no. Okay. So. Last night was cool. I rode around with Lisa, Evan, and Paul last night before show choir. I was changing in the car, and Evan "helped" (also known as did my show choir bra up for me and then unbuttoned and pulled down my pants without being told to.) Then he put on my regular bra (I was wearing the shiney rainbow one) and Lisa and I couldn't resist but take a picture. Theeeeen, he went outside and he and Paul tried to steal a stop sign (Evan still in the bra). Then we took Evan home and he gave us a ratchet to use on the stop sign. We went back and this time Lisa and Paul tried to steal it. I'll upload the pictures ASAP and show them off; they're amusing. Show choir went like normal...my dress is still too tight. Anyway. Moving on. OHHH!!!! Two quick Quigs stories! Story one: I was in at CR practice Tuesday and I was wearing a low-cut tank top underneath my SOAD hoodie. I was adjusting the tank top and Quigs saw me and started making fun of me, saying it looked like I was feeling myself up. Annoyed, I just took off the hoodie and just sat there up on the bar. Brian then was like, "You look like a model!" *^^* Theeen, yesterday, while I was coming in for Elite practice, he was coming out of the choir room. I was wearing my green flapper dress. He whistled and smiled. =DDD!!! Anyway, I thought I'd give those updates that make me giggle and squeak. Okay. Right. So. You'd think right now that I'd be in a good mood, yes? NO. AHHHH!!!! Madison's back today. I saw her, with her blonde hair and cute face and walked past and said my name aaaand....??? SHE IS HANGING ON THE ARM OF A GUY. *dies* THIS is why I don't date girls. ~.~; I am unbelievably irritated by this and came into third period and threw my books down and yelled "Goddammit!" I then had to cover my tracks because Ashley was already in the room and wanted to know what was wrong. THIS IS WHY I DIDN'T ASK HER, AARON! THIS IS WHY!!!! Anyway, I guess I'll be going stag with the gay couple this weekend, then.....bleh. *sighs* Life. Women. Well, it's official. - Tuesday, January 14, 2003, 10:16 p.m. I have had this journal for nearly a year. I was bitching about finals in my first entry and look at me now...first two finals tomorrow! German will be a breeze...MIRROR IS DAS SPIEGEL! =D lol. Trig, my half sheet will be a godsend. I'm fairly confident. To be honest, in fact, I'm not worried about any of my finals, though I'm totally fucked in the ass with Journalism right now... >.<; I seriously need to get my ass in gear and get some pictures or SOMETHING. Fuck fuck fuck. Yeah. Anyway. New topic, school sucks. I'm going with Evan (Wilson) to snowcomeing. =D Lemme find the pic of him so you can all giggle. He's the one behind the breakdancer with the brown hair and glasses. The blonde is Brennon, btw. Take a gander at the whole site if you want the full experience...on that day alone, down on "Taking Pictures" is Duncan in a red hat. XDDD! There's some other good ones I've saved, but I don't feel like going through the whole list and pointing out EVERYONE I know in band that's on the site. Though I should go through again and look for Madison. Anyway, that's all that I really have to report. School sux! kthx! Show choir is a bitch! =D Peace, hunZ! Weekender Edition - Monday, January 13, 2003, 06:23 p.m. Stupid computer is fucking around. Let's see if I can actually WRITE this entry!!! Friday. So. Lisa's mom dropped me off at Dad's and I chilled there until Mom picked me up. Then I came home and chilled until about 6:15 when Roro called me and asked if I had heard from Brittany. Well, I hadn't, and I told her so, but suggested she check online for her or Chels, since the phone was constantly busy. Next thing I know, the two had showed up on my front porch. Well, they sat around while I searched for a Save Point in KH and then we went in and popped in Signs. They ordered a pizza, and it was all good. Theeeen, after the movie, we wandered in here and I showed off some of the stuff on my computer. And that's about it! Slattery is supposed to talk to Roro for me sometime now that she (Roro) is back from lugeing and then talk to me, but I haven't heard from either of them!!! Ah, well, anyway. Saturday. Show choir practice. UGH! lol, nah, it wasn't that bad. We really came together and a choir and I'm really proud of the work we got done. Though I would just like to say that I HATE MARK!!!!!!!! WITH A PASSION!!!! Fucking choreographer Nazi that looks like a drunk. ~.~;;; Yeah, but anyway, we got a lot done. And our flapper dresses are so kyute! Kristy was trying her's on to see how it looked with the fringe and it's SO ADORABLE! SQUEE!!! I can't wait until they're all done. This is gunna be so cute. Anyway. I was leaving, and I ran into Quigs on my way to go check out, and I'm like "I'm bouncy! Brian, if I jump, will you catch me?" So he puts all his stuff down and I jump into his arms and he spins me around about six times and puts me down. Then he's like, "Oh! I didn't realize how light you are! Now you HAVE to let me do a lift!" So he explained what to do and then he lifted me really high above his head and spun me around. It was cool and a lot of fun. lol, I love him! I have another story about him involving today, but we'll get there. After show choir, Krista called and asked if I wanted to go to the movies with her and I was originally going to, but then Lisa wanted me to hang out with her and Tim. Seeing the open opprotunity to see Evan, I took Lisa up on her offer and suggested Krista call Theory since he had been muchos bored when I had called him. Well, Lisa picked me up at Dad's and then we went back to her place. Evan came later and we all watched the Muppet thingy (manahmana (doot doo doo doo doot)!) and then some stoner videos, and then Labyrinth. I LOVE THAT MOVIE! Evan and I were flirting the whole time, it was totally awesome. I'm going to ask him to Snowcomeing tomorrow...SHH!!! DON'T TELL ANYONE! =D Anyway, so yeah. Then Lisa took us all home. Sunday. Lisa called and asked if I wanted her to re-bleach my hair. I said sure and she picked me and Aaron up and then we stopped at Walgreens where we got our bleach. She did our hair for us and then dropped us off at his place. I raided his room and stole a shirt, a hat, FF7, a memory card, and his yearbook. ((I had to finish signing the yearbook which I have finally done!!)) So. Then Mom came and picked me up and around 6:30, I curled up to take a nap. I think Paul called at 7:30, but no, I went back to sleep. Lisa called at 8:30, and this time I got up. I talked to her till about 9:20, at which point she had to go and I called Paul. We talked for about 10 minutes and then he went to bed. So I got online and chilled on her until about midnight. It was cool beans. Today. Well, the morning wasn't filled with such amusing anecdotes like it is somedays ("I don't know anything about Pearl Harbor!"), but it was still fun. I sat around and talked to Melanie a lot about Snowcomeing. German, I hit up a ride from Betsy for the stuff with Landan Friday...Trig, I worked on SR Character profiles... OKAY! FUNNY QUIGS STORY! (Cuz I luv him so much, I have to mention my encounters with him...DAMMIT, LYDIA, BREAK UP WITH HIM!) So, I was walking towards the Journalism suites and we always say hi to each other...but this time, he gets this really shocked look on his face and points to his hair like "OMG!" I'm like "Uhhh, yeah...it's not THAT different..." lol. Anyway, 3rd period, same as 2nd...Elite, we worked on the show as usual...Lunch, talked to Tim and Dan Johnson about SR char profiles since I couldn't pick Tyrtul's magic element...Block, worked on char profiles and then worked on this sweetass poem thing we're doing. I LOVE IT. lol. Anyway, Algebra II was a blowoff period where we told blonde jokes and talked about drug dealing. Lisa and I chilled at her place after school til about 10-till, and then we headed back. WE HAD A DRESS REHEARSAL WITH OUR VESTS AND PANTS TODAY! URGH. I hate those! HATE HATE HATE! And I don't have my show choir bra yet...and I didn't bring my tights or my bloomers...FRUSTRATION! I also can't find my f-ing makeup. There's one that REALLY pisses me off - losing my makeup so quickly. Seriously, what fuckhead steals makeup from another show choir member? Because unless it was a backup band member (unlikely), no one else was around to steal it. Grr, I hate people. Stupid fucktards. Anyway, so now we have dress rehearsals all this week and WIGS! I'm not sure if I'm excited. Speaking of the wigs, I get to dye my hair. General consensus has been split evenly between blue and pink. What do you guys think I should do? I am leaning towards pink since Joel has his blue. Ah, I'll figure it out. Till then, I'm bleach blonde. Lisa is supposed to do it after competition Saturday. So, I have a week! Until then! - Kel Wasn't I listening to this when I wrote yesterday? - Thursday, January 9, 2003, 06:07 p.m. lol, I Want You Back by NSync. I think this was on when I wrote yesterday! Well, before first period, Lisa took my role of being the blonde. Madison walked by a bunch of times until Lisa finally got sick of me trailing off in the middle of conversation to stare and watch her walk by. She's so cute! ^^ Anyway, theeeen, I took my German test. It was pretty easy. I think I kicked some major ass on it. I slept all of second period and kicked ass in Go-time today. Elite was a little grueling, but I really feel like this is coming together. OMG, LUNCH. Right, so I'm sitting there and Madison shows up with that pink haired fiend that Theory can't stand. So Madison was sitting with us when Kellie shows up. And she gapes before walking away. I told Lisa what happened, and Lisa declared Madison's sitting with us more often. lol. Theeeen, Kellie sent Katie to ask why Madison was sitting at "her" table, and Lisa tried to get Katie to send a nasty message back, but Katie wouldn't. Then Madison came back and we all talked a little. When Katie returned, the pink haired fiend bitched out Katie and told her to go away. Sooo...yeah, lunch will be interesting tomorrow. Block, we started acting out the Crucible. I have a fairly large part! =D I'm Mrs. Putnam, Narrator Act 1-B, and Voice of Mrs. Giles. It's been puuuurty cool. I lost my books though, so I'm searching frantically to find them while I read out of Theory's. x.X; Theeeen, Algebra 2, on my way, Tim stopped me and told me that I have Mrs. Mitchell next semester and he's trying to switch into my class. It was cool. =D After school, the four of us regulars (Lisa, Tim, Evan, me) rode around to drop the boyZ off, plus Jenny joined us. We dropped Jenny off first, and then Tim jumped shotgun. The entire time, Evan and I were flirting like craaaazy. It was some fun shit. lol. After we dropped Evan off, the three of us went back to the school and hung out for CR back up band. Joel, Tim, and I sat off to the side and talked and stuff. It was pretty fun. =) Theory left a message on my voice mail earlier, telling me some stuff, so I called Madison to see what was up...she got suspended for five days!!! =( Anyway, after her suspension is up, she has to take a piss test, and if she passes, she can come back. Otherwise, she's expelled. She's drinking a LOT of water. lol. Anyway, yeah, today wasn't incredibly exciting and nothing incredible happened yet. I need to call the Brits about tomorrow night...aaaaaaaand I want to do some Tibia levelling up and I want to play KH! Tell me what to do now when I want you back???? No way! - Wednesday, January 8, 2003, 11:09 p.m. NSync needs to die, kthx. lol, SO WHY AM I LISTENING?! Agh. These people are like they're Matt staring me in the face singing. ARGH. Okay, so I broke up with him this morning, realizing that I do NOT want a relationship right now. So, I told him that and he was kind of like, "oh...that sucks..." I apologized and sent him on his way. Theeeen, I went to school and the day went well. I whooped Mike's ass in go time today. Looks like either Chelsea or Laura Enos got the solo. I decided Mrs. Byrne only considers juniors and seniors for solos. lol. Ummm...at lunch, I MET MADISON! OOH! lol, I told Tim yesterday I thought she was good-looking, so he had her come over today. I was talking to her when Kellie showed up. Tension, so Madison disappeared FAST. Then, Theory and I were walking out of the cafeteria together, when Madison came up and started walking with the two of us. Anyway, she's really cute and seems really nice. I'd like to get to know her better! ^_^ More about her later, though. On my way to meet up with Lisa after 7th, Matt walked past me and he went to turn and walk with me and he paused and then realized that I was gone by then. LOL, I GOT SHOTGUN! EAT MY SHORTS, TIM!!!!! lol. Anyway, Lisa and I were having a great time. I love hanging out with her. Then show choir was fun, but exhausting. I AM FINALLY GETTING EVERYTHING! There's just a few moves in Millie I don't get, but I've almost got it! Now just to get the music. lol. Wings was fun stuff. I went with Kellie and Joel. When we got there, Puckett was waiting for Wes and co. Theory and Krista and Samantha were already in eating. They called us in cuz they wanted me to sit with them, or at least talk to them. I said I'd talk, but I wanted to sit with Paul and Tim and Wes and Joey. Anyway, Theory's like, "Madison likes you!!!" I was excited and said I wanted to get to know her better. She's really hot. Anyway, so then Kellie got bitchy about it and sat down with them, as did Puckett. So just then, Tim and Paul and co. showed up, so I ran over to go get a table with them. Tim's like, "Guess what?" "Madison likes me?" "Do you like her?" "Theory told me. Umm, yeah, I guess!" He then told me that she was like "Does she like me?" "Do you like her?" "Does she like me?" "Do you like her?" "Yeah..." "I think she does, too." ANYWAY, Theory also said she was really excited when he said MAYBE I like her. lol, I'd like to get to know her a little better. Tim got me her number. My world, it just may be my first girlfriend! ...Gabrielle does NOT count. She thought I was a male. =/ MegaJake is a male screen name, and I rped as a male dog...but she just took it so literally. Ah, well, she was so nice and my first real experience of being with a girl. lol, WOLVES. Oh well. But, yeah, so I'm excited about that. I got home, and Matt was online. He tried to tell me he was an angel sent to protect me after Matt killed himself. Then he tried to convince me we could be friends with benefits. I'm like, um, no. TOO ATTATCHED! I remember when I asked Paul, I specified a guy I could make out with that I didn't know, no committment. That flew out the window and that's now a closed window. And now he's being all creepy about it like Mike was. It's like, wtf, why are you being all creepy-obsessive?!!? Agh. So, I'm just kind of trying to creep away and into something more...FREE! I'll jump on Scoot and Brooksie tomorrow and feel muchos better. Note to self - convince Paul to walk around the school. LOL! I'm mean. Anyway, I'm tired. Niiiight. *licks Adam and Brandon* =D - Tuesday, January 7, 2003, 05:34 p.m. lol, I felt like being perky. Right. So. Matt and I are going out. THAT IS NOT GOING TO LAST.... *laughing* Liiiike, we were together and Paul called and I was like, yeah, I need to talk to Paul and then sent Matt on his way. He was like, wtf, you're blowing me off to talk to another guy. XD! Paul = BFF. Anyway, so I know we won't last long because it's one of those where everything's different now that we're going out. I shouldn't go out with guys. It changes how I view them, and then I don't want them anymore. (See: relationship with Mike.) Seriously, like he and I have only been going out a couple of hours and I'm ready to break up already. THAT is never a good sign. o.O;;; eh, I'll give it a week. Or so. Anyway. Paul and I have decided that from now on, we're also gunna call Lisa everyday. Sooo, it's gunna be me & him, me & Lisa, him & Lisa, and then three-way phone convos. Woo! It will be fun stuff. I have the coolest best friends. OH! It was funny! Today, the three of us and Gripp were sitting at the ramp, and Lisa opens one of Paul's books. This moth FLIES OUT OF THE BOOK AND FLUTTERS AROUND THE HALL! lolol, it was this paper-rubber band thing that Paul had put in to freak out Lisa. OHHHH, IT WAS HILARIOUS! Then they kept using it against other people. Happy birthday to Emily and Wes. I gave them their pennies and made a bit of a deal out of it, like I always do. lol, I convinced everyone to NOT wish Wes a happy birthday to see how he reacted. It was great. I was going to buy a pop tart and I pull all my change out of my pocket and I go, "Hey, I already gave Emily her penny!" Wes goes, "You didn't give me mine." I look over at him and go, "Oh. I knew I had put two in my pocket for a reason." lol, then I told him I was playing, and wished him a happy birthday, saying I knew that it was. I'm so easily amused. lol. Anywho, he's talking about having a party over the four and a half day weekend. WOO! I died in Tibia again. I was cornered at the Wolf Den. 101 gp gone. Two bags. Rope. LOTS OF FOOD. =( Damned wolves. I was eating, too, but not fast enough. Anyway, I need to go out and get new stuff, but I'm too damned lazy. lol. Eventually. I added a faux conversation from Tibia into my profile. Skye: Leprekhon is my sexy lover! Taq: whoa! Leprekhon: BUYING A ROPE!!!!!! LOL. Oh, and Wes plays now, too. He's TaronFire. WOO! And Adma is starting over with Xaq, the female. So he wants to go "Taq is sexy!" "So is Xaq!" So we all go "Whoa, twins!" OMG! "It would be fun to drain all the rivers cuz then people would ask, 'Where'd the rivers go?' and everyone would say, 'I dunno.'" lol, I stole it from Lisa's profile - it's a quote of Krista's. It amused the hell outta me. I thought I'd throw that in before I run off to go play PS2 or work on SR or something. Peace hunz! Finrus Kenbuus! (Latin Attack!) - Monday, January 6, 2003, 06:21 p.m. Matt didn't ask me out today like I was told he would. Ah, well, I'll keep waiting. Oooh, he's got such a sweet personality. We talked all this morning before the delay. Aaaand we talked almost all last night. I really am starting to get really comfortable around him. Liiiike, I never see much of him in person (well, didn't today anyway), but we talk tons online and on the phone. He's just....agh, he's kyute! Granted, I know all kinds of better looking guys (my WORD, Jacob was looking fuh-INE when I saw him Sunday), but this really isn't a looks-based thing for me. I am happy with this because it's someone that I am into for a real reason. I know it's real, too, because I was ready to give up...then I talked to him and it's like "Hey. I like this guy. He's got a nice personality." e.e; I suck. lol. Anyway. We had a 2 hour delay today. Twas nice. I went to Dad's and chilled there and then rode the bus to school. McF was kinda excited to see me. I think he missed me. =D He says he's gunna start coming to Wings again, which is awesome. Then I got up front just as the bell rang, so I walked with Paul and Wes towards the German room. All the periods were shortened, which made me happy. Except an hour of choir, which was spent doing You Look Good in Love tryouts. Awesomeness. Sooo...I ate A Lunch. As usual!!!! lol. The Black Boy test was EASY!!! I didn't even read the book!!! It was niiiiice... And then Algebra II, nothing exciting. Yuuup, that was my day. However, because of the stupid delay, I didn't get to see Theory or Dan today. =/ I wonder what they're up to. GUYS, IM ME OR CALL ME IF YOU READ THIS! =D Anyway. Tibians, I need help. Someone needs to protect me down in Al Dee's basement in the Bug Den!!! lol. I have like 24 hp and I need either food or to GET OUT! Anyway, IM me Adam or Brandon when you're down there so I can connect and get help. I DON'T WANT TO DIE. If I do, grab my pack for me, so when I respawn, I don't lose all my gold. kthx. =D So who actually still reads this? Show of hands please! - Sunday, January 5, 2003, 06:53 p.m. AGH! PEOPLE! SUCK! Okay. I don't know what is going on right now! Okay. So. I saw Jacob today. SAW him. SAWSAWSAWSAW. I think he's trying to blow me off. x.X; Someone slay meh. And then I talked to Matt on the phone. He was such a sweetheart! It's like I wasn't actually talking to the same him that there was on the couch!!! And then, also, he told me his s/n and I looked at his profile and he had "I love Kelly" in it! AHHHHH!!! *dies* ... *dies again* ... *casts Zombie and Auto-Life* ... *casts NulHolyWater* x.x;;;;;; WHY. ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY CAN'T ANYTHING BE SIMPLE! *throws things* On top of that, things with Theory and Wes are just getting worse, worse, worse. Cuz it's like, now Wes and I are actually getting along again and Theory wants to rip his head off...then they're both saying that the other one is treating me like shit, and OMG AGH! FUCK THE FUCKING FUCK! lol, Duncan moment. ANYWAY. SPEAKING OF DUNCAN! That fucking fuck has been gone all week, and what is he doing?!?!?!? PLAYING PLAYSTATION! GET THE HELL BACK ONLINE SO I CAN TALK TO YOU! I haven't talked to Paul yet today, either, but as far as I could tell...he was okay last night. Though he was prolly upset about Brit and Maddy...mmm. =/ Brandon. Heart. I thought I'd include how much my Brandywine rocks my world. (And I still say you're not fat. >/) He's hotter than Merry, too! lol. Yes. I'm in a weird mood. Pardon me. I'm going to go get my Black Boy SparkNotes now. Peace! For a little change of pace, we've changed things up! - Sunday, January 5, 2003, 01:19 p.m. o.o; I dunno. Here goes. Well, last night the bunch of us went to Wings. Originally, it was supposed to be me, Theory, Krista, Rachel (and her b/f Dan), and Aurora. Then I called Paul and he came too. Then Wes, Andrew, and Danny showed up. We split up across the aisle in our old two booths like we used to, and things were good. Paul, Rachel, Dan, and Theory were at my booth. We talked and chilled and had a lot of fun. Then our table minus Paul plus Aurora and Krista went over to Ground Level. There, Theory played with his camera a bit and Rachel and Dan made out. Krista and Aurora disappeared. Next we went to Wes's. There we met everyone else that had been at Wings and the guys played Halo. Matt showed up, so he and I chilled. Then Paul brought the two of us back to my house, where he waited for a ride. Okay. Matt. I tried actually talking to him last night. Broke out the yearbook just to randomly talk. Did not work. He has noooo personality! lol. Anyway, so I'm just kinda like...."no." Anyway, then he left and I got online. After playing complete ring-around-the-rosey with Theory, Krista, and Wes (not that things ever really got sorted out...this is getting so stupid.), I got really upset. I got on Tibia to level up and calm down, and who do I see without knowing he was there but I had been looking for him?! BRANDON. I got pissy. After going off on him, I just vented for hours upon end. He didn't really seem to want to listen, so then I apologized for being a whiny bitch, even though he said it was alright. I also talked to Tim, who wants to set me up with a girl. Or something. o.O; We had a weird conversation. He and Lisa are going out - YaY for them =D! Anyway, I guess I'm kinda lucky that Kai-kai didn't leave any alcohol up here - it wouldn't be anymore. I was in the mood to get wasted last night. ~.~; Baaad night. I talked to Jacob today and I don't know what the hell is going on with us. This is so fucked up. I am sick of all this shit!!!!! One minute we want to go out, the next minute we both want to call it all off, the next minute we want to go out again! What. The. Hell. We need to figure something out, because this is just annoying the hell out of me. We talked for hours yesterday, and we touched on some stuff today but his mom made him get off to eat. (GOD I'm glad my family doesn't eat communal meals. lol.) Anyway, so, yeah. On the good news: I get an allowance again. w00t! Marilyn's paying me fifteen bucks a week. Dad's also getting me a new memory card. Yay for parents with money. I also don't think Aurora hates me as much anymore. Hmm. Okay, I'm out. Peace, yo! Misery after All of my Love...hm. - Saturday, January 4, 2003, 02:39 a.m. Well, Paul brought over Matt Welsch like he said he would. I realized, though, that I am mega-stupid. Anyway, he and Paul showed up and after I finally got the parentals to stop bothering me every two secs (lol, Marilyn's like "I don't want that boy in my house!!!" about Paul. Poor Paullie...he's my best friend. =( ) Anyway, we watched Lilo and Stitch, then How High. During the credits and bonus scenes that Paul flipped through of How High, and then for another half hour or so after that, Matt and I made out. He's either 2nd or 3rd...I'm not sure where he stands up against Dick yet. Anyway, he asked for my number, so I have it to him. I really don't care whether or not he calls. *shrug* Poor Paul...Brit was supposed to come over. That's why he brought Matt. So I could make out with someone while he and Brit made out. But Britney told us she couldn't come, had to study for finals. So, Paul got upset and was kinda pissy to her on the phone, but not horribly pissy. Just kinda. So he felt bad and called her back to apologize. At this point in time, Matt and I are making out so I didn't get the chance to ask him about it. He came over here and got on the computer and emailed me telling me to call him when he got home. So, I did, and it turns out she had gone over to CARRIE'S. I'm like, dude, wtf. So, I'm going to call her tomorrow before she goes to work and find out what the fuck she's doing. No one treats my best friend like that...not even another best friend. >/ Mmm, tonight I'm in a chat with Belle and one of her friends. He's fricken hilarious. Omg, it's like how Jason used to be. GWBP peepz...think Rolando. Multiply him by ten trillion. Yeah. lol. Anyway, I'm mega-amused and sending snippets of the convo to Theory, who I've been wanting to talk to all night. However, he's kinda blowing me off, so I'm wondering what's going on there. =/ Did I do something wrong...? I guess I'll just have to find out. Maybe he's upset that I couldn't go FFXI searching because I was making out with Matt. *sigh* I dunno, I also think he should've told his mom tonight instead of putting it off. I guess we have differing views of what's important in life. *nods* It happens. Anyway, it's nearing 3, and I'm actually coming down from my caffine high. Niiiiight yo! Spartana Royale, you have changed our lives. - Friday, January 3, 2003, 12:17 p.m. *yawns* I would've liked another half hour of sleep or so, but Mummy called me to wake me up and see if I wanted lunch. I should've accepted, because now I'm hungry!!! lol. Anyway, it's probably for the better that I got up because I have to go over to Dad's for the weekend, and I have a lot of shit to pack, plus I need to shower...bleh. Well, I want to look nice for tonight! *^^* I wonder who Paul found... Hm. Anyway. Yeah, it was amusing, I was telling a story yesterday and now, Dallas has a SR-spinoff name. Texas Minor. Don't ask. lol. Yeah, and those of you familiar with the new All Alone in my White Girl Pain, you also know the Brits have names too...Whitney Mason (short Britney), and Kyra Simone (tall Brittany.) I've been trying to work on SR, but I'm having trouble with writers block. I really want to do the Skye/Rave fight scene. After that and a few minor plot points, I can move on and do the next part of the story. (It's pretty much divided into three parts...Cerulean and Linnaeus's feud, Skye and Linnaeus, and Skye and Kazen.) Anyway, I also have a lot of work to do on Theory's part of the plot, though I worked out a nice scene with Flase last night. Theory was especially amused by the line, "We're not all church going, god fearing, cross fuckers like you are!" XD! Between that and "The power of fucking Christ compels you!", I feel like a religion basher. Ah, well, Launden deserves it!!!! *whacks Stehlik upside the head* I talked to an old friend last night. It was really cool. I figure that in case he or anyone else that knows him finds this, I won't mention his name because he doesn't want a lot of things to be found out. =) Anyway, it was kind of interesting. He was looking through my profile and made a comment about the scene I had in there ("This party couldn't get any gayer" scene). I laughed and explained to him it wasn't making fun of gays, but making fun of how Dan uses "gay" and "fuck" for just about every other word. He then told me he was gay! I was like, "whoa!" I guess I kind had an idea of it when I was around him when we were younger, but my gaydar is very weak. =) Anyway, so we then spent a lot of the night talking about gaydom and bidom. It was cool. lol, and no, Theory, I'm still not telling you who she was, either. It was JUST a kiss, so you might as well not even worry. I can't find my stupid memory card!!! Paul said he's going to get me a new one, but I don't know if I can trust him or not. XP! Okay, he's one of my best friends, but he's still a huuuuuge prankster! Anyway, if he doesn't get me one, I can always go out and buy a new one, even if it does take from my FFXI fund. ~.~;; I get KH in a few days! I'm excited! Belle has started playing it again, and the more she talks about it, the more confused I get. KILL THE KIDS WITH KEYS! Agh. lol, that's my main character, isn't it??? Well, maybe I shouldn't kill him, then. But I do get to kill Tidus, so maybe there is a plus. *giggles* Now I get to hear more than just Wes and I say "Tee-dus!" That and Pah amused the hell out of me during Blitzball. Ahh, there really were some good times in that relationship. Too bad. XP! I had good times with Dick, too, so NYAH! In fact, I had more good times with Dick... o.O; He was just a Dick on the phone! lol. That and I'm a discontent little bitch. =D The grass is always greener! Mmm, I hope Theory redoes Diesel's character description soon. Honestly, I think he should just let me put it up as is. XP! Seriously, Wes can't complain because it's the same damn thing he and I went through over and over again with SR when he found out he breaks up with Skye for Shandy. And then again when he found out he dies. And yet AGAIN when he found out Cerulean won the battle!!! ~.~;; It's our stories, no one else can tell us how to write them. This is our creative thought process. Besides, we are not writing about the actual people around us. We are taking bits and pieces of their personalities and physical appearances and turning them into a character that fits what we want for our story. The fact that everything about Diesel fits Wes has absolutely NO relevance. lol. I'm such a bitch. =D Anyway. Shower. Packing. Food. Not neccesarily in that order. =D I'm out, yo! Happy New Year! - Wednesday, January 1, 2003, 08:23 p.m. Yesterday, I went out to lunch with Theory. It was fun. We played a lot with his digital camera, which amused me. Unfortunately, the dumbasses at Best Buy erased our pics when they were trying to fix his camera (which had nothing wrong, they just gave him the wrong software. IDIOTS!) Tumbleweed has bad sirloin. Too tough. Meh, Logan's was better and nothing beats Outback's Prime Rib. YUM! lol. Anyway, then he came home with me and here we burned his CD (which is still in my CD burner), and then we went out into the living room. After playing around with Fighter Maker 2 for a little bit, I popped in Silent Hill 2 and he did my hair for me. It turned out so KYUTE! It was anime/punk spikes in twin ponytails put into one. Then he picked out an AWESOME grunge outfit, my camo zip-offs, my green baseball longsleeve t, and my leather vest. It was AWESOME. Then he made an attempt at my makeup, but then started to whine saying he couldn't do makeup, so I finished it. It was awesome. I should have Theory pick out outfits and do my hair for me more often! =D Then we went to Carrie's party. The beginning was just everyone setting in and getting to know one another a bit more (since Theory didn't know Carrie or Maddy very well.) Then we tried to play Clue (everyone kept cheating.) Then we were giong to play Monopoly, but we discovered the buildy things to create marble mazes. So we built a big thing on that and raced marbles. WOO! lol. Then we discovered this thing on Carrie's computer called Shit Talker that had some weird voices. We called Wes once or twice with the old grandma one, until he stopped picking up. Then we played Word Associations and the Story Game and I've Never for awhile. Next, we went upstairs to hook up the karaoke machine, but the Cd player part was fucked up. Then Paul showed up, so we went back downstairs and played I've Never some more and then played Truth. (Note: Our I've Never was with pop b/c there was no al-kee-hol. Lindsay didn't trust us and Kai-kai never called us back.) Anywho, I've Never was fun cuz I drank at almost everything. Theory and Carrie's sis Lindsay drank more. XD! Then we just kinda sat around talking and stuff. Twas fun. Maddy kept sticking her breasts on Theory, making him cry. XD Anywho, George picked me up around 12:30, and I headed home. Woo! Today, I asked Paul if he had any male friends who would be willing to make out with someone they just met and not expect commitment, so this Friday he, Brit, his buddy Matt, and I are all gunna hang out after Brit gets off work. It's gunna rock face. lol. Jacob comes home soon, so I'm going to give him a call and talk to him a little bit...I really need to talk to him about some things that I'd rather not discuss with all ya'll. I mentioned it to Britney, but that's about all I'll talk about it. Maybe I'll mention it after I talk to him, but it depends on what happens. =D Theory and I are starting a SR/Shadowe RPG board. It's gunna be kickin. He's working on his character profiles now, and then we're going to open it up to everyone. Hopefully it'll get a good response. I mentioned it to Wes and he declared he'd like to be Diesel - said it'd be fun. lol, talking to him made me feel good about myself because I didn't think I'd make it and look at me! I've never felt this good... Okay, I have, but not since before Wes and I started going out. Seriously, when I was able to do whatever I wanted with whoever I wanted whenever I wanted...when my life was mine for the controlling and I didn't have to worry about who I was talking to or doing things with or anything... IT FEELS DAMNED GOOD TO BE SINGLE!!!! lol, mark this day down on you calendar folks...lol, watch I go out and get a boyfriend tomorrow. XD!!! I'm so weird. Double "date" that wasn't a date or a double - Sunday, December 29, 2002, 10:44 a.m. So. About 5:30 last night, my mom comes in and tells me that plans for the night might've gotten changed a little bit...she had just gotten off the phone with Kim (Britney's mom) and Kim not only didn't know that it was going to be more than just me and Britney going to the movies, but she also thought my mom was driving. SO. Britney wasn't allowed to go. Of course, Dallas couldn't understand this, because Paul had told him that we were all just going out as friends. *whacks Paul* So, anyway, Dall and Paul still showed up at my house, and after my mom apologizing profusely to Paul, we decided to still head out. Dallas drove, I sat shotgun, Paul in the back. Our first stop was dinner. We went to that Logan's Roadhouse over in Jefferson Pointe. After about a fourty-five minute wait (Paul was kinda ticked about that...I didn't mind, we all got to talk a little more and I felt like I got to know Dall more), we went in. We all got steak, we split an order of nachos, and ohhhh, Paul was hilarious. He kept switching what drink he got. The waitress was really nice and we left her fourteen dollars for tip - twenty percent would've been about ten. Anyway, Dall wouldn't let me pay for my dinner, no matter how much I tried to give him money or see the check. Though Paul would've gladly taken it, except for the fact that he already paid the short straw. lol, Paul is a freak. Next we drove over to Rave. Standing in line, we decided we wanted to see Lord of the Rings, but the next showing was 9:45, which meant we wouldn't get out until 1. My mom had said I had to be home at 11:30. So, Dallas called both Paul's and my parents (he's so good with them ^^) and then we called Britney for Paul. The two of them talked while we waited to go in. Then once we went in, Paul finally got off the phone. We all sat there and talked for awhile - the guys about work, Paul and I about how friggen nervous I was and how much I liked Dallas (and how mad I was at him for telling Dallas something I told him in confidence), and all three of us about how mad Paul was at my mom. So, then the movie started, and Paul had been egging me on to put my hand on Dall's arm the whole time. I was really nervous, but finally as the previews were over, I did. The movie was great. I almost cried yet again, but this time I didn't have to wait until the next one to be excited that my would-be crying was in vain. lol. I was incredibly amazed by the fight scenes. The dwarf was hilarious, again. "Don't tell the elf." LOL. Ohhh, Gimli was hilarious. Aragon and Legolas were just as incredible as they were. lol, Paul and I kept saying how much Aragon was a pimp throughout the whole movie. Those tree things were totally cool. I was very amused. And GOLLEM!!! Err, what was his other name? Smeegle. Yeah! He was good, and I liked him.....but now I'm scared for my little Hobbit friends! *throws rocks* Anyway, that's my consensus of the movie. Moving back to the date that wasn't a date. So, after the movie (which by the end, my hand had ventured to the very edge of his sleeve, where the tips of my fingers could just happen to grace the top of his hand...wow, I'm a nerd ^_^), we all loaded into Dall's car to head home. Dallas called his mom and told her he was at Paul's house (she was paranoid about him being out after 1...think my parents times two.) Then we were off. I was sitting there shivering because it was so cold, and he was so sweet!!! He got his gloves out and handed them to me to put them on!! lol, I was like "awww..." So, yeah, now I'm kinda tweaking and freaking out, and I don't know what to expect, but I want to see him again before he goes down to Indy. I'm honestly hoping he'll come to the New Years party. I'm willing to not touch a drop of alcohol if it means he'd be more likely to come. Or, like, maybe tomorrow, after "Christmas" with Marilyn and her family, maybe he and I could do something....ahhh!!! But I don't want to be any more forward than I have and call HIM and ask HIM to do something...I want to leave that up to him. But it'll be really depressing if he doesn't!!!! Ahhh, I'm tweaking, let me alone. I'm going to go eat cake now. =P Argh-le-mrgh-le-fluff. lol. - Thursday, December 26, 2002, 10:01 p.m. Well, Ultrazone was fun stuff. I CAME IN THIRD THE LAST GAME! Rock on to the free world. =D Anyway, it was tons of fun and I was flirting like crazy with Scoot. Both he and Nathan seemed excited that I wanted to be a white mage in their party for FFXI. Brit and I had a lot of fun together, too. We were both all excited about Saturday and stuff...but Paul's like "I DON'T THINK SHE LIKES ME!!!" Ahhh, it's so cute watching those two. They're, oh...they're just CUTE! lol, okay, I'll stop. Agh, but Scoot, he's like "Yeah, she's pretty." I'm like, "NO!!!! MY SCOTT!" Seriously, Scott is my flirt buddy, and now he thinks Britney is pretty and what am I?! AGH! Seriously, I almost wish he'd just ask me to stop, because then I wouldn't be so...so...I DON'T KNOW THE WORD! Agh. Anyway. After UZ, I went over to Paul's. First we watched DB and DBZ. Then we started Christmas Vacation, till I fell asleep. Then we went upstairs and I watched while his family opened gifts for Christmas. lol, I assumed Paul's job of the reindeer while he was Santa. (In other words, I got shafted with the hats cuz Leah wouldn't do it and I made the mistake of volunteering to help. lol, it was cute, and I don't mind. I love Paul's family.) It was a lot of fun, though, because I felt really at home and really accepted by his family. I'm hoping Paul and I will hang out more now. He's like my best friend (along w/ Brit and Lisa) and I don't want us to drift apart like last time I considered him a best friend. *shrugs* If he and Brit work out, it'll be even better. Except I'll wind up a third wheel a lot. AHH! DALLAS IS A GOODY-TWO-SHOES CHRISTIAN BOY. AHHHHH! lol. Yeah, I have to give up cussing and swearing and whoring around if I'm gunna get him to like me. SO. Replacement words (smack me if I dun use em): Shit - Sheize, Sheist Exception: Holy shit replaced with "Holy poo" Fuck(Fucking) - Puck, crap on a stick, flippity-floppin Damn - crap Hell - Flaming fires Yes. So. That's the hard part. The easy (not really) part will be acting all sweet and innocent. Letting him make the first moves. Eh, I can at least brush up against him...right? RIGHT?!?!?! Argh. lol, anyway, I'm gunna bounce and try to clean up my language while I do it. Puck you all! =D Lata flava! Ho, ho, ho, Merry Christmas! - Wednesday, December 25, 2002, 02:20 p.m. I got Dogz 5! And a radio/CD player for the shower! AND ATARIS CDS! Oooh...I'm mega-excited. I got lots of makeup, too. I think my family's trying to tell me something >.>; lol. I also got some sweetass cell phone faceplates. They amuse me. One's camoflauge, and one's a teal lightning (like blue lightning was, only prettier and not cracked...lol.) Dogz 5 is confusing b/c they took out the Toy Closet and they moved the Petz menu and ARGH! I'm not sure if I like it or not. My petz are buuuusy and five minutes in, Tussle and Snickers are both pregnant already!!! Karissa and Mixer are luckily both still puppies...! lol. I talked to Paul awhile last night and this morning. He's up in New York. lol, it's so cute listening to him talk about Britters, cuz he's like "What if I say something stupid!!!" "...Paul. That's inevitable." "...shut up." lol, all four of us are so excited about our double-date Saturday. I'm nervous about meeting Dallas because he's supposed to be this goody-goody kind of guy, and then there's...well...me. I plan on getting drunk off my ass at Carrie's New Years party. =D!! lol. And Paul wants to see if he and Dall can come to be with Brit and I for New Years, soooo...yeah. Imagine me, the whore I am anyway, plus alcohol. Ohhhh boy! @__@ Well, I'm going to go test my new CD player and new CDs and most importantly, GET CLEAN! lol. Merry Christmas, and expect to hear from me if you haven't yet! Exhaustion. ~.~; - Monday, December 23, 2002, 09:52 p.m. Well, the party did not quite go over as well as I had planned. In the beginning, it was just kinda dull, since most of the exciting people were mellowed out. We watched a movie and I mistletoed Theory and Emmy five or six times. lol. Then the guys went to play Goldeneye while the rest of us raided the computer room for awhile. Then we went back into the other room and popped in Monty Python, so everyone but Theory came back. We watched that, and then Mike showed up. However, he left right away to go pick up Becky. So then after MP, we popped in Goldmember (Krista showed up in the middle of MP.) Then, part of the way through Goldmember, someone says Paul is here. So I turn around, and who do I see? DREW. My jaw dropped. I dragged Paul back to the bedroom to put his coat away and explained to him why Drew being there was NOT the best of ideas. Yeah, so, things were awkward for awhile...people were stupid for awhile...I got mocked, and all kinds of shit went on...I wound up in my room crying. Then Mike and Becky left (I gave them both a hug and thanked for coming and we all decided we have to do something more over break). Then a group of us went on a trek to Joe Shepler's house. We walked down and saw him for ten minutes or so. It was great. Then we walked home and just hung out. Soon Jacob had to go home. He gave me a hug and said he'd talk to me later. I came back into the computer room, and soon everyone was gone but Paul and Drew. Paul was trying to learn my AIM pass and Drew was just kinda being stupid. Finally Paul got it and Drew pinned me away from Paul so I couldn't keep Paul from talking dirty to Paul Verdeyen. Oy vey. Finally KJ chased the guys out. So I was alone. This morning, the following convo took place: Slammer1887: ive gotta talk to you Dracon Genocide: Yes? Slammer1887: well i dont wanna talk to you online Slammer1887: cuz its the wussys way out Dracon Genocide: Well, we can't talk on the phone if you're online Slammer1887: or somethin like htat Slammer1887: right, and im downloadin kazaa Slammer1887: ahhhh Slammer1887: ill try to get kazaa done nice and fast And theeen later... Slammer1887: why were u in your room last night? Dracon Genocide: The first time just to get away from everyone, but the second time because I didn't feel like crying in front of everyone there Slammer1887: why were u upset? Dracon Genocide: I felt like I was being mocked and humiliated in front of everyone by you, Drew, and Paul Slammer1887: how by me? Slammer1887: cuz we were hiding the phone? Dracon Genocide: You and Drew were conspiring like hell against me Slammer1887: with the phone? Dracon Genocide: And the silly string Slammer1887: and you took it that personally Slammer1887: ha Slammer1887: we were joking Slammer1887: it was obvious Slammer1887: lol Slammer1887: did u even realize we were kidding? Dracon Genocide: Yeah, but I am really sensitive to being the butt of the joke Dracon Genocide: I've been getting it all my life Slammer1887: you werent the butt Slammer1887: you were part, but not the butt Slammer1887: we werent making fun of you Dracon Genocide: I gotta run Dracon Genocide: Shopping at Kohl's with Becky Dracon Genocide: Gimme a call today sometime, my cell will always be on me, at least until I head out to UltraZone with Brit and Dan Slammer1887: all right Slammer1887: ill call u Slammer1887: aiight The catch? He never called. *shrugs* I suppose I'm okay with it...but I'm fairly disappointed because I find it frustrating when someone says "I'm going to call you!" and never does. MEN! Becky and I went shopping today. We only went ten bucks over my 150 limit, which should be okay. I got a couple of shirts, a few pairs of pants, a jacket, and some kickass boots. Oh, and three pairs of socks! She was fun to shop with. I don't mind it, believe it or not. o.O; Anywho. I went caroling with Brit, Carrie, and some of their friends. It was a lot of fun, even though it was hella cold and hardly anyone came to their doors. Then Brit and I were talking about Wes, and Jenny asked if this was the creepy guy she and Carrie had talked to online. We said yes, so she called and left a message saying it was Jenny and we would call back later. So when we got up in Jenny's room, he called my cell and then Jenny talked to him for a bit with Britney in the background calling him a stalker. Then Carrie wanted to carol @ Wes, so she asked us what to sing and Brit started singing about how she hated Wes. So then he asked for me and he asked if that was Brit. I said yes, and he was kinda like..."Tell her not to call then..." After he hung up, I passed that on, and she burst out laughing. Then Carrie and her came back to my house and we watched Goldmember and started Emperor's New Groove. Then they got picked up and then I came in here! Yes, so now I am very exhausted and have slept most of the day. I'm tempted to go back to sleep again. ~.~; AGH! Par-tay at KelKel's house! - Saturday, December 21, 2002, 04:18 p.m. Well, those of you who keep up with Wistful Whimsy as well, know that I've been grounded lately and what I've been doing while on restriction. However, I doubt you all actually read it. =P Losers. Anyway, I'm ungrounded as I discovered today when I sat down and had the internet returned to me. It's like, yyyyeeeeeessssss!!!!!! lol. Tomorrow is my hugeass part-ay. Final count: 20-24. w00t! Jacob is coming, so that makes me excited. We went to the movies last night. So cute! ^^ Mom likes him, too. We concluded that he's a mix of JC and Sam Higgins. Strange mix, I know. She says she likes him better than Wes. And Paul. And Dan. And Dick. And Mike. Dan made her think, but the rest of them she said definitely to. lol, that's always good, when my mommy likes the guy. Then again, she likes anyone who makes me happy...she even liked Wes while we were going out. I'm not so sure if she does now...hmmm... I can't tell! lol, George doesn't. He almost choked on his drink when I said Wes had a girlfriend! I died laughing. Today is Marilyn's birthday. I called her and wished her a happy birthday before we went out shopping. She was really grateful that I called. We talked about all kinds of things, mostly Larry and the kids. It was alright. I'm going over there the 28th or 29th to celebrate X-mas, since Pop gets back the 27th and Larry & kids get in 28th or 29th. I won't stay for long...just a night...but it's courteous and it gets me gifts. I'm so spoiled. No, just self-centered. =D I lurve me. lol. I'm doing something iiiiiiiinteresting today, after I shower. It's a secret though, so you'll have to wait to find out!!! If I don't know you irl, IM me and ask me what it is...cuz I'll tell you. But it's gunna be a surprise for tomorrow for everyone else. =D lol, anyway, just trust me...it'll be awesome. Well, I'm gunna go shower in a bit, and I'm out of things to talk about! So I am outtie! Lata, yo! Come to think of it.... - Sunday, December 1, 2002, 01:56 a.m. I HAVE THE SAME PROBLEM WITH KT! x.X; Why are all my friends prettier than me? I need ugly friends so then I won't have this problem. Blah. Bah. Tonight. - Sunday, December 1, 2002, 01:27 a.m. I definitely had a long night. So, I went to Ultrazone with the boyz and Brit. It was fun. I did fairly well, considering how long it's been since I last went. We went through and hit the bases and the Sentinel. It was nice. Nathan was there. I officially want to declare I NEED NEW FRIENDS THAT AREN'T BETTER LOOKING THAN ME. Okay. I don't like Nathan. Or Dan. Or Wes. Or Kevin. Or any of the hundred million other guys that think Brit is hotter than me. *sighs* I just want for once for me to be the one that guys pick when the first see the two of us standing together. It's like I try my damnest to be pretty, she wears a hoodie and no makeup and they still pick her. Fuck guys. Bah. I also made a TOTAL fool out of myself, but we'll not go into that. I definitely now have a friend acting really weird around me, I promise. I need my Canadian chica to get online and cheer me up. =/ Bah. Yeah, I'm TOTALLY grounded for two weeks, completely kicked from the internet. She's unplugging the modem. I was hoping KT would log on so I could talk to her before then, but noooope. I left a message on her answering machine, though. Mebbe I'll try calling again tomorrow. I need to recharge my phone card soon, though. I'm down to about 80 Canada minutes, and around 160 or so American minutes. They half, dammit. Urgh. I am in search of a boyfriend. I know Wes and I only broke up two weeks ago, but this is just getting frustrating when every guy I like after him just wants to be friends. I'm tired of that. Seriously. It's not like I'm just one of the guys. I want someone who I can cover his eyes and give him a little peck on the nose and then giggle when he breaks into a broad smile. Bah. I have romantic dreams. *sighs* GRR. I AM FUCKING BEING DESPERATE. I need to stop that. Bah. Get me a man. Now. =/ YAY! - Friday, November 29, 2002, 01:19 p.m. Hawk Wings are back, as am I. Much rejoicing entailed. So, time for a perky entry. Ohhhh, I have the urge to update Es todo de Kelly. I don't know why. Maybe it's because I'm talking to Michael Shanabarger on ICQ (yes, it's back! 97190525 - Genocidal Draconian) and he was looking at it and commenting. Then again, it could be cuz I was looking at all the Wes-related stuff and just went "Ewww..." Was I really that head-over heels? Please shoot me. NOW. YOU'RE NOT GOING FAST ENOUGH, DAMMIT!!! Anyway. I'm chasing Brad now, and I'm just as bad with him as I was with Todd. lol, "Todd's 5'11. So is Brandon." XD Yeah, but Brad sent me a picture of his abs, so it's all good. Mmmm, eight pack. Yes, Katie, I will stop now. =P Then there's Dan, Jake, Brit, and I. That's Ultra-Zone tomorrow at 7. Rock on. I'm hoping Paul will want to do something before that, like maybe see a movie. Jess and Laura were supposed to call me about seeing Eight Crazy Nights, buuuuut, that never happened. Also, Britt, Brit, Carrie, and I are talking about getting together Sunday. Ooh, boy, this weekend is nice and packed. I'm likin it. Except for shopping with a gay guy on the shopping day of the year: the day after Thanksgiving. WHY DID I AGREE TO DO THIS, AGAIN?! Oh yes, because I love Theory. I'm noticing something. Ever since I've started the Prozac I've been cheerful and hyper ALL the time. I think I like it. I know I was so against the medicine and all, but I'm cheerful and I literally can not get upset. Seriously, like, I had a dream where Wes kissed me and SO EW, but I am okay with it. Usually I'd be like "Mehhh...he kissed me...I miss him...boo hoo hoo." Wow. I just mocked myself being depressed. THERE IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME. lol. I think I'm going to go track down pictures of Brad's abs and then I will be okay. lol, I'm so weird. I took hotness pics of me last night. I will get Adam to upload them soon so I can post them all over. BRAD MACDONALD, I WANT YOUR BODY. =D lol, that's why I took the pictures. He wanted me to take my shirt off, but I said not unless I knew I'd get more than one night of conversation. Sides. We were on KT's s/n and she read our entire conversation. I REFUSE TO SEND THAT TO KATIE. Poor girl. =D Ohhh, I talked to Kourt last night. That was GREAT. The two of us played "Let's make fun of the ex-boyfriend we have in common." Ah, good times. And then I was talking to KT about Tommy. And then Tommy about KT. And I set them up. Don't I rock? I LOVE ME. lol. So then Brad got on Tommy's MSN s/n and we talked and I luff Brad. He'll get off work at 7 my time tonight, but I won't be home, I don't think. I wanna talk to him and KT and see if them and Tommy can come down for my party. I'd also like to talk Brad into coming for semi, since Puckett turned me down, but one step at a time!!! lol. Ohh, I'm obsessive. Speaking of my party, Katie, Brandon, Adam, Chua, and Andy need to figure out what they're doing!!!!!! I WANT THEM TO COME! Meh. I need my Chicagoans and Potato-boi. Much ruv to them. I wish Steve could come too, but his mommy said no. Bad Steve's mommy! I prolly should invite Puckett...OH! I NEED TO TELL GLENN ABOUT IT! Shiiiit, I knew I was forgetting a key detail. And Mike and Becky! Oh, dear, I'm so far behind!!! @____@ I BETTER GET A MOVE ON! Phishie out! So.  I suppose you want my life story.  Here goes. My name is Kelly Reid. I'm fifteen and live in suburban Indiana.  Yes, there is more to me than corn and basketball.  In fact, those have absolutely nothing to do with my life.  I've lived here all my life and basically have found it incredibly dull. In the past year, I have managed to pass ninth grade, and now I move on to tenth grade, pulling through with a few friends.  My best friend Lisa Chandler as well as others.  To name a few, there are also my close friends, Aaron, Katie, Britney, Adam, Katie-Batman, Steve, and Brandon.  There are many more, but these few are the most influential in my life and have helped me and inspired me the most. I'm a single bisexual female who is always looking! I'm kind of saving myself for a cute little freshman, Nick Kaczorowski (only if you spell it right), but that isn't keeping me from flirting all over the place. I want to be a photojournalist when I grow up, and someday plan on going to Brown University, Northwestern, or maybe Berkley.  After college, I have plans to move to southwestern state, such as Arizona or southern California.  From then on, I'd like to live out a long, peaceful life as a married writer / photographer.  For practice, nowadays, I am working on a story called Spartana Royale, about a girl in a battle arena; and I am a photographer for our school yearbook, The Retrospect.  Hopefully, within the next few years, I will hone in on my skills and raise my grades to be able to fulfill my dreams so foolishly set.  It will take work, but I am willing to try. If my photojournalist dream falls through, my second dream is to be a graphics designer or a dog breeder.  AS YOU CAN SEE...lol...I have a lot of work to do for the foermer.  However, I am practicing my little booty off by scanning and CGing every damned drawing idea that comes to me.  In the near future, I'd like to start a comic strip called "The Freaky Fam."  Some of you may understand, some may not...but it will feature characters such as Lena, Bunny, 4w, Ax, Duo, and CC.  Coming soon???? As for the latter, I am working with my dog Jake and after my other dog, Roxie, dies soon (she is very ill,) I want to geta puppy and start raising it. So, fifteen and rising, I am ready to tackle my life, one worry at a time, while you return each day to read of my escapades in this foolish little thing I call a journal.  Hopefully, within the next three years, you will leave me as I becme the young woman prepared for the real world.